Verse 1 I carried every sorrow That was never mine to carry Like a cathedral built from other people’s tomb And every prayer I swallowed Turned to sediment inside my lungs I learned to call surrender By the beautiful name of kindness Learned to bleed discreetly So nobody would call me cruel But compassion has a shadow And mine grew taller than my soul Now every wound has someone else’s fingerprint Every silence wears a borrowed face And somewhere between forgiveness and exhaustion I misplaced the architecture of my faith Pre-Chorus They watched me So I learned to watch myself They judged me So I became my own tribunal I disciplined my heart Until there was nothing left There’s nothing left Chorus Desperado… oh, Desperado… I saved the world, but lost it all I turned my bones to ash and fall Don’t want heaven, don’t need any hell Just break me out of this unbearable shell— Let me be anywhere else. But here Desperado…,ode to my sorrow I’m tired of bleeding just to buy a day I gave my soul to everyone And loved myself away. Desperado oh Why don’t you give me this senses ? (Post chorus) Who’s left to save When the savior disappears? Verse 2 Foucault was right about the prison It doesn’t always need a wall Sometimes the cell is an invisible gaze A thousand eyes a millions life That you carry underneath your skin I became a subject Before I became a man Measured, corrected, observed Until my own reflection Started speaking in the language of authority What is freedom When the jailer lives inside your conscience? What is a self When every version of you Was assembled beneath somebody else’s gaze? God knows, I understood too much Until understanding everyone Left no one To understand me Pre-Chorus 2 And mercy became machinery Turning endlessly inside my chest Every time I saved another person Something in me disappeared Until kindness became indistinguishable From self-erasure Chorus Desperado… oh, Desperado… I saved the world, but lost it all I turned my bones to ash and fall Don’t want heaven, don’t need any hell Just break me out of this unbearable shell— Let me be anywhere else. But here Desperado…,ode to my sorrow I’m tired of bleeding just to buy a day I gave my soul to everyone And loved myself away. Desperado oh Why don’t you give me this senses ? (Post chorus) Who’s left to save When the savior disappears? Bridge (Music almost disappears. One piano note every few bars. A faint clock.) Tonight— I saw Death sitting across the table. Not cruel. Not merciful. Just patient. He moved a piece. I laughed. Because for once someone had finally arrived without asking me to be anything. Nothing. Just human. And I thought— perhaps death is not the opposite of life. Perhaps it is simply the final silence after we have exhausted every name we were given. (Silently music pause ) But I still had one piece left. Final Chorus(music back) Desperado… oh, Desperado… I saved the world, but lost it all I turned my bones to ash and fall Don’t want heaven, don’t need any hell Just break me out of this unbearable shell— Let me be anywhere else. But here Desperado…,ode to my sorrow I’m tired of bleeding just to buy a day I gave my soul to everyone And loved myself away. Desperado oh Why don’t you give me this senses ? (Post chorus) Who’s left to save When the savior disappears?
