Mm mm Ba da doom Da ka da Mm mm Still here Woke up with nothing but a pulse and a plan No big revelation no new better man Just one more morning trying something I haven’t Finding that little space between anger and action That’s new You might not see it But I used to catch a spark and give the whole room meaning Now I let it hit Let it move through me Anger has energy It doesn’t get to choose me And you know me Probably better than most Know every dumb little joke every tell every ghost I read your face before you say what you feel We fit way too well That’s what makes the damage real Mm mm Ba da doom Same two pieces same pressure in the room Mm mm Here it comes I’M GETTING STRONGER NOT HARDER You can throw sparks I don’t have to be fire Knock me down I’ll come back smarter I’M GETTING STRONGER NOT HARDER Ba da doom Da ka da STRONGER NOT HARDER I can feel everything and still decide what happens after Ba da doom Da ka da Mm ah Da ka doom doom Ba da doom Still me Still here Sometimes the words go way past angry Gut me World would be better if I disappeared maybe Something heavy cuts the air beside my face And every older version of me wants to answer the same But no I’m done feeding that machine Pain goes in pain comes out Nice little factory I know that job I worked that shift Made somebody bleed emotionally just to prove that I did What a stupid economy Everybody goes broke Trading hurt back and forth till we’re choking on smoke So I’m trying something harder Not winning Not leaving the room with the highest body count in it Just feeling the voltage Watching where it goes I can’t stop lightning I can choose what it flows through And we fit That’s the fucked up part Same strange humor same ridiculous heart You know where I’m soft I know where you scar Being made for each other doesn’t make us good at war I’M GETTING STRONGER NOT HARDER You can throw sparks I don’t have to be fire Knock me down I’ll come back smarter I’M GETTING STRONGER NOT HARDER Ba da doom Da ka da STRONGER NOT HARDER I can feel everything and still decide what happens after BA DA DOOM DA KA DA MM AH DA KA DOOM DOOM BA DA KA DA MM MM AH Not harder Pressure Pressure Pressure Changes everything Push hard enough even mountains rearrange But change doesn’t tell you what shape you have to take I can bend I can move I don’t have to fucking break Strength isn’t silence Strength isn’t staying Strength isn’t finding a crueler thing worth saying Love isn’t permission And fitting isn’t fate Two pieces fit perfectly and still grind under weight So I’m not chasing sainthood I’m trying to be someone who can feel a whole explosion without becoming one No halo No sermon No promise I’ll never fall Just one more second between the feeling and what I do at all Mm mm Ba da doom You don’t get to choose me Mm mm Ba da doom Neither does the anger I’M GETTING STRONGER NOT HARDER Throw your sparks I don’t have to be fire Cut me down I’ll grow back stranger I’M GETTING STRONGER NOT HARDER Ba da doom Da ka da STRONGER NOT HARDER I can love somebody and still decide what happens after I’M GETTING STRONGER NOT HARDER No perfect ending No final answer Just one more day one more choice one more chance to become STRONGER NOT HARDER Ba da doom Da ka da Mm ah Ba da doom Da ka da Still here Still me Still choosing Mm mm Ba da doom Feel the anger Choose the answer Mm mm Stronger Not harder
