--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Please do not use, remix, or download this song without my written permission. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- [HOOK] Why the fuck I gotta lose myself to win your broken heart? Being honest got me labeled weak right from the fucking start I won't twist into a villain just to play your twisted part Keep your chaos, keep your damage, I'd rather fall apart [VERSE 1] You're attracted to the poison, call it butterflies and fate While the one who'd die for you is standing at the gate I respond too quick, I'm desperate - that's the narrative you sell But he leaves you on read for weeks and suddenly he's doing well Tell me how that mathematics ever made a bit of sense You romanticize the heartbreak, turn your trauma to a kink I'm supposed to be more distant, colder, treat you like you're nothing Then maybe you'd feel something, maybe then I'd be worth wanting You collect these fucking scars like trophies on display Then wonder why your picker's broken, why you push away The ones who'd build you up instead of tearing you to shreds I watch you crawl through glass for love that leaves you barely fed And I'm the problem 'cause I give a fuck too soon? 'Cause I don't weaponize my interest, don't make you chase the moon? Nah, I'd rather burn alone than strip away my soul Just to fit inside the sickness that you've normalized as goals [HOOK] Why the fuck I gotta lose myself to win your broken heart? Being honest got me labeled weak right from the fucking start I won't twist into a villain just to play your twisted part Keep your chaos, keep your damage, I'd rather fall apart [VERSE 2] You want a project, not a partner - someone you can fix and mold Someone broken just enough to make the story worth retold I'm too stable, too consistent, where's the drama in my name? He's got demons and addictions - now that's worthy of your pain You can't post me with a caption 'bout how love has done you wrong Can't play victim in the comments when I've treated you this strong So you self-sabotage and ghost, create a problem out of air Just to feel that rush of chaos 'cause my peace is hard to bear You been conditioned by your childhood, by your parents' shattered trust Now you're replicating patterns, chasing pain disguised as lust And I'm exhausted being punished for the sins I never did Paying prices for his crimes while you keep score like I'm the kid You want intensity? Here's intensity - I'm fucking done Done translating all your silence, reading signals, picking crumbs Done competing with the ghost of every asshole from your past Done pretending that this torture is a love that's built to last [BRIDGE] You cancel plans, I pull back - now I'm villainized for breathing You breadcrumb me with maybes while he gets you every evening I'm supposed to wait on standby while you figure out my worth? While you're texting him at 2 AM about your pain and hurt? Fuck. That. Shit. [VERSE 3] I refuse to be your backup plan, your safety, your relief The good one you'll appreciate when time has brought you grief When you're thirty-something, used up, finally ready to be real Come crawling back with clarity about the way I made you feel But I'll be gone - I'll be healed - I'll be happy somewhere else With someone who saw value in me being my true self You can keep your dating strategies, your rules, your little games I'd rather die alone than prostitute my heart for claims Of validation from someone who don't even know their worth Who mistakes anxiety for chemistry since birth Real recognize real, but you been living in disguise So when you saw my genuine, you couldn't recognize The rarity of honesty in a world that's built on fronts I gave you something authentic, you just wanted to be hunted So go and let him hunt you down and disappear again I'll be here rebuilding what you broke, and thriving in the end [HOOK] Why the fuck I gotta lose myself to win your broken heart? Being honest got me labeled weak right from the fucking start I won't twist into a villain just to play your twisted part Keep your chaos, keep your damage, I'd rather fall apart [OUTRO] This is me choosing me This is self-respect over second place You want a monster? Find one I'm done performing for your trauma I'm out -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- © [Precision]. All rights reserved. This song, including its music and lyrics, may not be used, remixed, adapted, or distributed without my written permission. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
