[Verse 1] Forty-three and still wide awake Anime glow on a cracked old screen Cats on the couch, smoke in the air PC keys click through my late-night dream Italianhippie, that’s my name I laugh, then I fade, then I try again [Pre-Chorus] Why was I born this way? Why do new faces make me freeze? I got a heart that wants to run But my mouth keeps missing the keys [Chorus] I wanna be more normal I wanna talk to you I wanna feel less lonely Like the easy people do I wanna be more normal And hold a love that stays (hold a love that stays) But I’m still here, still hopeful Even on the hardest days [Verse 2] Girls look at me and I go blank Like the room got too bright, too fast I rehearse a joke in my head Then I miss my chance to make it last I want a girl, a little home A family table, a place to grow But the future feels like a locked front gate And I’m counting coins that never show [Pre-Chorus] Maybe I’m built for the quiet Maybe I’m built to ache I keep reaching with both hands out Even when they shake [Chorus] I wanna be more normal I wanna talk to you I wanna feel less lonely Like the easy people do I wanna be more normal And hold a love that stays (hold a love that stays) But I’m still here, still hopeful Even on the hardest days [Bridge] I dream of a little farm Goats and chickens by the fence Mud on my boots, not in my mind A softer life, a gentler fence But money’s tight, and time runs thin And I can feel it in my bones Still I plant one stubborn seed In the dark I call my own [Final Chorus] I wanna be more normal I wanna talk to you I wanna feel less lonely Like the easy people do I wanna be more normal And hold a love that stays (hold a love that stays) If this life keeps moving on I’ll sing my truth to stay
