until i didn't | feat. 𝓘𝓼𝓪𝓫𝓮𝓵𝓵𝓪𝓡𝓸𝓼𝓮

[Verse 1] I memorized the way you laughed Like it could save my hardest days Used to trace your name in notebooks Like somehow that would make you stay You wore chaos like a jacket I called it “beautiful somehow” Guess I only saw the glitter Never saw the breaking down [Pre-Chorus] I loved the way you talked too fast The way you’d pull me back Every little flaw you had I turned into something I couldn’t lack But loving you got heavy And heavy things still fall… [Chorus] I tried to stay soft I tried to stay kind But every little promise Kept tearing up my mind And I hate that it’s true I hate what you made The love in my hands Turned to a blade [Verse 2] I loved your hoodie in December Your tired eyes at 2 AM How you’d act like you were joking When you really needed friends I defended every red flag Like they were stars instead of signs Now I read our old conversations And barely recognize my mind [Build-Up] You kept saying “forever” Like forever couldn’t break Now every word you ever gave me Feels rehearsed and fake [Chorus] I tried to stay soft I tried to stay kind But every little promise Kept tearing up my mind And I hate that it’s true I hate what you made The love in my hands Turned to a blade [Bridge] And maybe you didn’t mean it Maybe you were hurting too But pain turns people colder And I froze beside you Now I hear your name and flinch Instead of smiling like before Funny how the person you adored Can feel like war… [Final Chorus] I tried to stay soft I tried to stay kind But loving you slowly Unraveled my mind And I hate that it’s true I hate what we became ‘Cause I loved everything about you… Until I didn’t anymore