The house was quiet long before you left Like it knew something I couldn’t guess Your coat still hanging by the door But you don’t reach for it anymore I was just a kid with a broken map Trying to find where my future’s at They said, “You’ll be fine, you’ll learn to cope” But they don’t know what it’s like with no hope And I still talk to you in my head at night Like you’re gonna answer, make it alright But the silence hits harder every time Yeah, I’m learning how to live with goodbye When I was younger, I needed you here To tell me the truth, to take away fear Now I’m just holding these words in my lungs Singing to someone who’s already gone And I’ve been trying just to find my place In a world where I don’t fit the same I laugh with the others, but I still feel under Like I’m stuck as the kid who was… younger Different homes, different names to learn Different people, but the same old hurt I’d lie awake, staring at the ceiling Wondering if anyone felt what I’m feeling They’d talk ‘bout love like it’s guaranteed Like it’s something you don’t have to need But I’ve seen it leave, I’ve watched it go So don’t tell me it’s something I’ll always know I got good at hiding everything inside Saying “I’m okay” every time I lied But there’s a weight that I can’t outrun Yeah, I carry it with me everywhere I go When I was younger, I needed you here To tell me the truth, to take away fear Now I’m just holding these words in my lungs Singing to someone who’s already gone And I’ve been trying just to find my place In a world where I don’t fit the same I laugh with the others, but I still feel under Like I’m stuck as the kid who was… younger If I could call you, I’d say I’m trying Even on days when I feel like hiding I’d tell you I made it through the worst Even though some nights still hurt And I know you’d say, “Just keep going on” Even when everything feels so wrong So I hold onto that like it’s the truth Like I’m still somehow talking to you When I was younger, I needed you here Now I see pieces of you in the mirror In every step and every scar You never really left, you’re not that far And I’m still learning how to be okay With the past I can’t rearrange I’m not like the others, but maybe that’s stronger I’m more than the kid who was… younger Yeah, I was younger But I made it through And I’m still here because of you
