Thought I was doing better Thought I'd finally found my way But something changed inside me And I don't know what to say It started in the silence Slowly taking me over Now every little thing feels heavy And I'm scared it's back again I know this feeling I've been here so many times It doesn't come crashing It just slips through the door And I can feel it pulling Me back in It's getting dark again I can feel it in my bones It's sucking me in And I don't know how to stop it All the sadness All the things I can't explain I thought I left them somewhere But they're coming back to me It's getting dark again And I'm scared I'm losing my will to live And it scares me the most That I remember how it feels When I start to let things go Another thirty years Seems so long from where I stand Everybody keeps saying It will get better But I don't know if it can This time I don't want to disappear I'm scared of where this goes When I can't stand my own skin And the pain gets unbearable I know I've been here before I know I made it through But knowing that I survived it Doesn't mean I want to do it again It's getting dark again I can feel it in my bones It's sucking me in And I don't know how to stop it All the sadness All the weight inside my chest I keep trying to escape it But it keeps catching up again It's getting dark again And I'm scared That this time I will give in Maybe this is what scares me More than anything else Not the darkness coming back But becoming someone else Someone I don't recognize Someone I can't pull through Someone who starts believing The things the darkness tells her to And I don't want to disappear Until there's nothing left of me It's getting dark again But I'm still standing here Even with the weight of it Even with the fear It's getting dark again And I don't know what comes next I'm trying to hold on I'm trying to stay myself It's getting dark again I can feel it closing in And I don't want to disappear It's getting dark again (Getting dark again) What if this time I can't get out I don't know what to do I don't know how to stop it I just know I'm tired Of ending up here Time and time again
