You're a Siren

Lyrics By : @johio [Intro - Voice B: heavily distorted sardonic whisper, mocking, unsettling detuned piano] Hi, hey there, hello How's it going in the world of Joe? Been a bit since we last spoke How's life, the kids, how'd therapy go? I've been gone for a bit I know You started taking your meds Got me out of your head But I knew you'd choke [Verse 1 - Voice A: clean melancholic emo pop tenor, intimate, hesitant, clean muted synth plucks] Oh hey, yeah it's been a while Things are alright I guess I'm not laying on the bathroom tile Though, I am depressed But I'm trying to raise my child I don't need you inside my head I don't need your holes in my chest Look, my bad I forgot my meds Now please, just let me get some rest [Pre-Chorus - Voice B: smooth manipulative baritone, sinister, building tempo, detuned analog bass swells] You don't need me is that right Not on tile but still crying through the night? You admit depression Seems like regression A normal person doesn't whine through the fight You're great, pretty and kind even I'm here forever, not just a single season [Chorus - Tug-of-war duet] [Voice A: raw emotional tenor, swelling strings, clean heavy beat] You helped me build these walls [Voice B: distorted mockery, beat suddenly warps and glitches] But you never gave me peace [Voice A: pushing back, clean beat returns] The moment anxiety calls [Voice B: aggressive, sidechain tape saturation pumping] You're dragging me down to my knees [Voice A: overpowering, soaring melody, full dark pop production] But sometimes the old needs to fall So the new me can breathe You're a siren, screaming at sea luring me in by lying about what I should be [Verse 2 - Voice B: conversational but mocking, stripped back, dark pulsing distorted synth] Oh that's sweet, really, I mean it But love isn't something you're owed Well, go on then, go retrieve it You think they love you bro? Nah, not even you believe it Your ex-wife, she left you alone She found someone new to hold And the one before that she preferred her friends lap you gave so much love, but no one loves you back [Pre-Chorus - Voice A: shifting from exhausted to aggressive, tense frantic build, clean accelerating pulse] Maybe you're right Maybe I'm broken But that's not for you to decide Cause buddy I'm still hopin' Just cause things are muddy Doesn't mean I'm chokin' [Chorus - Tug-of-war duet] [Voice A: raw emotional tenor, swelling strings, clean heavy beat] You helped me build these walls [Voice B: distorted mockery, beat suddenly warps and glitches] But you never gave me peace [Voice A: pushing back, clean beat returns] The moment anxiety calls [Voice B: aggressive, sidechain tape saturation pumping] You're dragging me down to my knees [Voice A: overpowering, soaring melody, full dark pop production] But sometimes the old needs to fall So the new me can breathe You're a siren, screaming at sea luring me in by lying about what I should be [Bridge - Voice B: frantic and overwhelming cacophony, dark, aggressive, heavy detuned bass, layered distortion] Kid, life ain't easy You know you need me I am you, you are we I'm your eye in the dark Can't you see? I'm here to protect you Not protest you Everyone's a bit selfish And when you felt helpless She found someone new to hold And the one before that she preferred her friends lap you gave so much love, but no one loves you back [Pre-Chorus - Voice A: shifting from exhausted to aggressive, tense frantic build, clean accelerating pulse] Maybe you're right Maybe I'm broken But that's not for you to decide Cause buddy I'm still hopin' Just cause things are muddy Doesn't mean I'm chokin' [Chorus - Tug-of-war duet] [Voice A: raw emotional tenor, swelling strings, clean heavy beat] You helped me build these walls [Voice B: distorted mockery, beat suddenly warps and glitches] But you never gave me peace [Voice A: pushing back, clean beat returns] The moment anxiety calls [Voice B: aggressive, sidechain tape saturation pumping] You're dragging me down to my knees [Voice A: overpowering, soaring melody, full dark pop production] But sometimes the old needs to fall So the new me can breathe You're a siren, screaming at sea luring me in by lying about what I should be [Bridge - Voice B: frantic and overwhelming cacophony, dark, aggressive, heavy detuned bass, layered distortion] Kid, life ain't easy You know you need me I am you, you are we I'm your eye in the dark Can't you see? I'm here to protect you Not protest you Everyone's a bit selfish And when you felt helpless I'm the part of you that can't be dealt with Your anger, your wrath, your rage The voice that keeps you from going back to that place Your therapist was wrong, I'm not a phase I'm you, you're just wearing my face [Chorus - Tug-of-war duet] [Voice A: raw emotional tenor, swelling strings, clean heavy beat] You helped me build these walls [Voice B: distorted mockery, beat suddenly warps and glitches] But you never gave me peace [Voice A: pushing back, clean beat returns] The moment anxiety calls [Voice B: aggressive, sidechain tape saturation pumping] You're dragging me down to my knees [Voice A: overpowering, soaring melody, full dark pop production] But sometimes the old needs to fall So the new me can breathe You're a siren, screaming at sea luring me in by lying about what I should be [Outro - Voice A: resolute and steady fade, music suddenly drops out, stripped down to raw clean piano] You were there when I had nothing You kept me safe while I was hurting But now it's just not working I'm not that boy I used to be Scared, crying in front of the TV I've grown man, I've got a family I don't need you prying Or rewriting, the narratives, see, I need you beside, not controlling me its who we are now, not who we were So please, stand down, I promise I'm not hurt Just shut up, and let's get back to work