⏳️ Im Compressed ⏳️ I stayed calm while my chest caved in Smiled soft while the blade stayed in You ever hold a storm so long You forget what silence even is I give warmth, get distance back Give truth, get a polished act Everyone wants the version of me That never reacts to the cracks I regulate I breathe it down I swallow fire so no one drowns But where does all that pressure go When I’m the one with no safe ground I don’t explode I compress Turn heartbreak into “I’m fine” text Till my nervous system starts asking Who exactly I protect I don’t scream I absorb I don’t break I distort All this weight No release So it settles Underneath You ever feel replaced in real time While still being told you’re loved Watch someone live a full life While you survive on crumbs I don’t need ownership I just need truth said clean Not sugar wrapped silence Like I’m too weak to see Don’t protect me from reality Protect me from the lie I can handle pain I just don’t like disguise So I go quiet Not passive Just pulling my energy backward If I speak now it cuts deep So I’d rather master The distance The stillness The part of me that observes Instead of the part that gets vicious I don’t scream I absorb I don’t chase Anymore If I’m distant It’s peace Not revenge Just release Some days I want connection Some days I want the void Some days I’m pure devotion Some days emotionally destroyed Not by love By imbalance By giving more than my balance By being “strong” so long I forgot I had my own damage So if I step back Don’t panic I’m not leaving Just standing In a space where I don’t Have to bleed to be understanding I’m not angry I’m compressed There’s a difference I’m learning that Santiago Flores 🌅🌅🌅🌅🌅🌅🌅🌅🌅🌅🌅🌅🌅🌅 🌄 Part Of Your Dawn 🌄 You knock when the daylight's dying When the room's already gone cold Five borrowed minutes One borrowed smile Like I'm another thing you hold You always find the empty spaces Between the noise and everything You call it timing I call it distance Different names for the same old sting I stopped measuring love By how long I could wait Started measuring people By the room that they make Don't knock When the lights are already low Don't call When there's nowhere left to go I won't live In the spaces between your plans Love ain't unlimited access To somebody who still has hands If you want me Walk through the front door Don't visit me Like an afterthought anymore I used to leave the porch light glowing Thought you'd see it from the road Now I leave it dark Not out of anger I just stopped carrying the load Funny how silence teaches What talking never could explain Some doors don't close Because of hatred They close to keep out the rain I don't need revenge I don't need goodbye I don't need another reason why I just learned A heart without a lock Becomes a room Everybody borrows Nobody bought Don't knock When convenience knows my name Don't smile Like tomorrow's just the same If I'm worth your voice Don't spend it when the day's almost gone Love isn't showing up eventually It's making somebody part of your dawn I still believe People can change I still believe Hearts rearrange But if you want all of me Then don't arrive Only after You've run out of somewhere else to be Santiago Flores
