You watched me pull away and lock my jaw You had to live with what my silence caused I called it keeping everything contained But all you got was distance with your name I know what I meant, I know what you felt My reasons don't lighten the weight that you held The pressure was mine, but I pushed it your way You carried the impact of what I couldn't say No careful phrase can make that moment right No hidden reason takes away that night I cannot promise I am past the strain I can stop making you translate the pain I'll say it plain Before the quiet turns against you I'll name the weight Before my words come breaking through I won't ask you to erase what I've done I'll say it plain before I come undone If I need space, I'll tell you what that means Not leave you reading gaps I put between If I am angry, I will call it mine Before it lands on you another time You don't need a code, you don't need a clue You shouldn't have to guess what I'm putting you through So here is the part I kept trying to blur: I was overwhelmed, and I still chose those words No careful phrase can make that moment right No hidden reason takes away that night I cannot promise I will never strain I can stop making you translate the pain I'll say it plain Before the quiet turns against you I'll name the weight Before my words come breaking through I won't ask you to erase what I've done I'll say it plain before I come undone When I shut you out, you stood there on your own. When I came back loud, I made you take it. I'm not giving you a reason to forgive me. I'm giving you the words I owed you then: I hurt you. Tell me what you need me to hear. I'll say it plain While there is still a way to reach you I'll name the weight Then stop and let you answer me I won't ask you to erase what I've done I'll speak before the pressure makes me run I'll say it plain — and let the next word come The next word comes from me.
