4. LOCKED DOORS [INTRO] Locked doors behind persistence, permanent damage in the walls. Every door I force wide open leaves another fucking scar. Toxic thoughts become beliefs, beliefs become commands. I keep fighting with my mind while my mind takes back my hands. [VERSE 1] Every hallway in my head leads to somewhere I don't know. Thoughts keep moving way too fast, I can't tell which way to go. Manic panic, lights are flashing, heart is beating through my chest. Every thought becomes a weapon, every second fails to rest. Psychological warfare, battlefield behind my eyes. I keep running from the noise while the noise keeps multiplying. Locked doors, toxic beliefs, permanent damage underneath. I keep trying to break the cycle, but the cycle follows me. [HOOK] RUNNING! I keep running through my head. FIGHTING! With the things my mind has said. MANIC! PANIC! Everything is moving fast. I keep running from the present while I'm trapped inside the past. [VERSE 2] Antipsychotics changed the picture, changed the way the chaos felt. Then I started getting off them, wondering what the hell was left. Is it better? Is it worse? I don't know which way it goes. Different chemicals, different battles, different versions of the noise. Trying to silence what's inside me, trying not to lose myself. Caught between the fucking chaos and the quiet somewhere else. Then the whole world starts collapsing, everything becomes too loud. I can't breathe. I can't think. I can't— [BEAT CUTS] [BRIDGE] Silence. I stop. Everything is calm. And there you are. I don't question it. I don't run. I just look. For one moment everything is beautiful. No panic. No voices. No war. Just peace. I know you're gone. But right now... I don't care. I'm just appreciating the moment. [BREAK] You're gone. [BEAT SLAMS BACK] FUCK! [VERSE 3] Back to running through the hallway, back to everything I know. That little piece of fucking heaven disappeared before I could hold. Now the walls are closing in, every thought is screaming loud. I look back and you're not there. So I fucking run again. RUN! RUN! RUN! Don't stop! Don't think! Don't look back! [FINAL HOOK] Locked doors, locked thoughts, locked inside my head. Toxic beliefs keep rewriting everything I said. Manic! Panic! Everything is moving. I keep running through the chaos while my mind keeps fucking moving. [OUTRO] For one second... everything stopped. You were there. I was at peace. Then you disappeared. And I started running again.
