Verse 1) Log the time, log the date, log the static in my head 10th-grade hallways feeling more like hospital beds February 3rd: the day the world turned black I felt the darkness coming and I couldn't push it back The rudeness hit like thunder, the thoughts began to swirl Landon tore the safety from a 10th-grade girl February shock: I find out you’ve moved on While I’m still in the ICU waiting for the dawn. (Verse 2) March 9th: 5th period, standing at the door I got there first, but you wanted it more "EXCUSE ME," you barked, cutting right in front of me A tiny act of power for the whole world to see March 10th: I licked the envelope and mailed it to the stage Sent my ICU secrets in a letter to Jake He’s the specialist on call, he’s the one who sees the gown While you’re just the weight that’s trying to keep me down. (Pre-Chorus) (Disruptive glitch sounds) Static on the monitors! Static in the hall! I’m waiting for the "Sudden Floor," waiting for the fall! March 11th: You’re staring in the lunchroom, talking in a blur "She sees me, let’s go," like I’m a ghost to her! (Chorus) It’s a 24/7 static, it’s a hyperarousal spike Landon is the trigger, and he’s hitting what he likes Flatline! (Alarm sound) Lockdown! (Alarm sound) Screaming through a breathing tube while I’m underground I’m in the ICU permanently, don't you understand? Jake is the only one who’s allowed to hold my hand. (Verse 3) March 13th: Passing period, I saw your face and ran Escaping from the gravity of your "toxic man" plan You’re married to your phone, you’re an addict to the screen Hiding in your ADHD to act so cruel and mean You lie to your mom, and you lie to mine too About why we broke up and the things that you do You demand my forgiveness after every toxic act But the ICU walls are a cold, hard fact. (Verse 4) April 8th: You’re sleeping in 5th, your head on the wood The teacher screams your name like I wish I could I ran out shaking, a "long erosion" in my chest You grabbed the bathroom pass to put us to the test Walking the wrong way, sitting on a bench of blue Middle finger to the teacher—that’s the real you She was outside comforting me while I couldn't breathe Watching you act like a king while I’m forced to leave. (Verse 5) April 10th: The separate setting, the test on the desk Me and Landon rising, a chaotic grotesque I started shaking, a "Gravel Crunch" of fear My teacher saw the "Flatline" coming very near "Landon, stay behind," she said, a shield in the room While I ran for the exit, away from the doom You gave her a mean stare, you looked like you’d cry Because you saw me with her, and you couldn't tell a lie. (Bridge) (The music gets very loud and disruptive—sounds of monitors flatlining) MARCH 9TH! MARCH 13TH! APRIL 8TH! I’m counting all the days that I was forced to wait! APRIL 10TH! I’m shaking in the hall! While you’re addicted to the phone, watching me fall! Jake! Cut the cord! Pull the plug! Make it stop! I’m at the ICU ceiling and I’m ready to drop! (Verse 6) You stole my best friend, you stolen my peace But in the ICU, I’m waiting for release You act "anxious" now, shaking when I’m near But that’s just your reflection in the mirror of my fear I’m in a blue gown, fighting for my life While you’re causing trouble and feeding the strife I’m 10th-grade Tech, and I’m never coming back From the ICU monitors and the static on the track. (Outro) (A sudden, jarring silence followed by a soft "beep... beep...") The sub is leaving... Karras might come back... But I’m still in the gown... (Whisper) April 10th was the last time I saw the light. Jake, hold me tight. (Continuous flatline tone)
