I can't say it I don't know how Instead I hold it all to myself Keep it in somehow Time doesn't erase you Just eases the feelings It still hurts so much, it feels like My heart isn't healing It won't go away Not sure I want it to But it's okay I'm learning to live with it (CHORUS) I wish I had known that was the last day You'd take your last steps If I had known that was the last day And those were your last breaths There's a lot that I'd take back So much that I would change That day still stays with me And all those choices I made If I had known they were all so wrong And this is where we'd be I hope you know everything I chose I'd choose differently The nightmare never goes away It's in my thoughts at night I lie awake and listen to the rain Hold back the tears I cry Life goes on Around me every day Put on a happy face and Tell everyone I'm okay Most days I really am But some days I'm not Sometimes just the smallest thing Keeps you from being forgotten That ache inside my heart I call it love instead It comes when I think about you Replaying memories in my head It's all okay I'm learning to live with it (CHORUS) I wish I had known that was the last day You'd take your last steps If I had known that was the last day And those were your last breaths There's a lot that I'd take back So much that I would change That day still stays with me And all those choices I made If I had known they were all so wrong And this is where we'd be I hope you know everything I chose I'd choose differently The nightmare never goes away It's in my thoughts at night I lie awake and listen to the rain Hold back the tears I cry We never fully heal In time it hurts less Some days are still harder The tears come and go But I'd rather have loved and lost you Than never have known your love at all
