[Verse 1] You built a room inside my head Hung your picture by the bed Then taught me which doors I couldn't open And I got used to calling it home I watched the seasons through your eyes Memorized the shape of every lie You could turn a wound into a warning Then kiss the place you left burning [Pre-Chorus] I should've run when I had the chance But I was scared of what came next Somewhere between the lock and key I forgot that door belonged to me [Chorus] Now I miss the chains when they're gone Miss the weight I learned to lean upon You left your shadow where my freedom should've been Now I can't tell where you end and I begin I hate the way I still need your name Like a house still listening for your car Every road away from you feels wrong So I miss the chains when they're gone [Post-Chorus] When they're gone When they're gone I can hear my own heart beating And I don't know that song I don't know that song [Verse 2] You were the knife and bandage too The wound and everything I knew You cut the voice inside my chest Then made me grateful for the quiet Sometimes I hear you in the hallway Footsteps that were never there I turn around before I remember There is no one waiting there And I still thank the ghost of you For all the hell you put me through Funny how the hand that held me under Still feels like the one I'm reaching for [Pre-Chorus 2] I know the truth I know the cost I know exactly what I lost But some nights I'd rather disappear Than learn who I am without you here [Chorus 2] Now I miss the chains when they're gone Miss the weight I learned to lean upon You left your shadow where my freedom should've been Now I can't tell where you end and I begin I hate the way I still need your name Like a house still listening for your car Every road away from you feels wrong So I miss the chains when they're gone [Bridge] If healing means forgetting you Then maybe I'm not there yet If love was never really there Why does my body still remember? I stand outside the house you made The door is open in the rain Every room is where you left it I still know where everything goes I could walk in I could stay I could tell myself Nothing's changed But for the first time In a long time I turn around And walk away [Break] No lock No key No hand around my wrist Telling me who I'm supposed to be NO LOCK! NO KEY! [Final Chorus] Now I miss the chains when they're gone But I know they never belonged You taught my heart to call the cage a home Now every open sky feels cold and unknown And maybe one day I'll move on Maybe learn to stand alone Maybe freedom isn't supposed to feel like love And love was never supposed to feel like chains So if I miss the chains when they're gone I won't mistake the ache for where I belong [Outro] The house is still there The lights are still on Somewhere in the dark The old clock is still ticking But I don't live there anymore I don't live there anymore Do I? [Fade Out: Piano note decays, cello holds, tape hiss, silence]
