[One's Own Life] I kept it quiet so nobody runs Dressed up the damage like it was love Spoke in a voice that didn’t shake Even when I knew I was about to break You saw the calm, you never saw cost Never saw what it takes to be lost I learned to smile with my teeth locked tight Say “I’m good” just to end the night Every truth got buried deep Under promises I couldn’t keep I played the role, I held the frame Took the blame, avoided the name But pressure builds in quiet rooms And silence always comes back soon You don’t hear it yet But it’s getting loud There’s a war in my chest And it’s breaking out I’m holding on like it’s control But it’s slipping through my hands Every version of myself Is something I don’t understand If I let go, would I survive Or finally just feel alive? I built this cage to feel in charge Now I don’t know who we are [R.E.D] Talk like I built this, like I’m in command But I’m losing the grip on the shape of my hands Every line that I wrote don’t sound like me now Just a voice in a mask tryna take a bow Yeah, I kept it precise, kept it locked in place Now it’s cracking apart and I can’t maintain All the versions I made just to feel in control Turned into something I can’t even hold I been walking a line that’s thinner than trust Every step that I take feel ready to bust If I drop this act, if I let this fall Am I nothing, or finally real at all? or is that just another line I rehearsed? Another version of truth that I twisted first Say it out loud but it don’t feel mine Like I’m reading a script I wrote over time Wait who’s talking now? I don’t recognise tone That don’t sound like me when I’m left alone If I peel it back, what’s under the thread? Is it me… or just noise in my head I… can’t… hold it [One's Own Life] TEAR IT DOWN — I DON’T WANT CONTROL BREAK THE FRAME — I’M DONE WITH THE ROLE EVERY LIE THAT I LEARNED TO DEFEND IS A WEIGHT THAT I CARRY AGAIN CUT IT OUT — GET IT OUT OF MY HEAD ALL THESE VERSIONS OF ME SHOULD BE DEAD IF I LOSE EVERYTHING THAT I’VE BUILT MAYBE I CAN ESCAPE FROM THE GUILT I’m letting go, I feel it break Every wall I tried to fake All the pieces fall apart Just to show me who you are If I drown in what I’ve been At least I won’t pretend again No more cages, no disguise I’d rather crash than live a lie No control… Just truth this time
