I don’t remember picking it up Just know it’s always been here Layer by layer, year by year Something settled in my chest I call it strength, I call it calm I call it staying in control But every step feels measured now Like I’m bracing for the load I don’t feel the strain all at once Just the way it never leaves I’ve been carrying the weight Like it’s part of who I am Holding ground, holding shape Doing all that I can I don’t know when it got this deep I just know it doesn’t fade I’m not breaking — I’m just tired Of carrying the weight Every silence has a cost Every pause adds something on I don’t drop what pulls me down I just learn to move along Old decisions, borrowed rules Promises I never made All of it stays on my back Every step, every day I don’t ask if I still need it I just lift it when it shifts I’ve been carrying the weight Like it’s part of who I am Holding ground, holding shape Doing all that I can I don’t know when it got this deep I just know it doesn’t fade I’m not breaking — I’m just tired Of carrying the weight Maybe this isn’t punishment Maybe it’s just what I learned to do Maybe I never set it down Because I never knew I could Still carrying the weight Still standing where I land Not asking for it gone Just trying to understand If I pause, it pulls me down If I move, it stays the same I’m not lost — I’m just aware Of carrying the weight
