Blanket’s cold, but my mind’s on fire Heartbeat ticking like a funeral choir Moon’s a witness through the windowpane Counting sins instead of counting rain Phone screen glow like a ghost in bed Every thought’s a thread I shouldn’t have read Replaying texts like they’re sacred hymns Your silence louder than the night begins I took melatonin and a prayer, babe Still the shadows talk like they know my name I’m stuck in the static—can’t rewind No peace, no pause, just open eyes 3AM—nothing’s sleeping Walls are breathing, silence screaming I’ve tried pills, I’ve tried dreams Still I drown in dopamine 3AM—sky’s still bleeding My soul’s awake but barely beating If I close my eyes, I fall too deep— So I stay awake, where the hurt can’t creep Streetlight flickers like it’s judging me Echoes fill the air like they’ve got teeth I write fake poems in the ceiling cracks Love and death, lined up back to back The world’s asleep, and I’m exiled here Mind like a riot, thick with fear Even God won’t text me back So I trace my sins in zodiac I’ve run the loops a thousand times Regret’s a DJ in my spine No lullaby could drown this sound Of a past that never settles down 3AM—nothing’s sleeping Walls are breathing, silence screaming I’ve tried pills, I’ve tried dreams Still I drown in dopamine 3AM—sky’s still bleeding My soul’s awake but barely beating If I close my eyes, I fall too deep— So I stay awake, where the hurt can’t creep Maybe morning saves me Maybe I don’t want saving Maybe sleep’s just another lie Like “forever” and “you and I” 3AM… And the dark knows all my names I’m not tired, I’m just… Running out of pain.
