Ruined One

I built a home in your silence, you moved out without warnin’, Left me talkin’ to walls, swear the echo keeps yawnin’. You flipped every script, had me doubtin’ my vision, Said the fire was my fault while you struck the ignition. Gaslight glowin’, now I’m squintin’ at truth, Every mirror’s a courtroom and I’m plead-in’ my youth. You’d vanish for days, then return like a saint, Paint halos on habits that reeked of restraint. I was carryin’ us like a spine with no bones, While you texted your ghosts from a throne made of phones. Now I’m mad at the sky for the cards I was dealt, If God’s got a plan, tell Him check how it felt. I feel like they're ruining your character baby and i kinda dont like it lately you have shined too much bright maybe thats why they wanna kill your light you will be the ruined one while they fly away you will be the ruined one while they dance away you will be the ruined one while they fly away you will be the ruined one while they dance away I feel like they're ruining your character baby and i kinda dont like it lately you have shined too much bright maybe thats why they wanna ruin your light you will be the ruined one while they fly away you will be the ruined one while they dance away I scream at the universe, “Why you do me like this?” Turned love into shrapnel, then called it a gift. I’m talkin’ to stars but they’re dodgin’ my calls, Got ghosted by fate while my heart hit the walls. I’m still standin’ tall though the damage persists, Tryna stitch up my soul with these bars and my fists. You said, “You’re crazy,” yeah, that’s rich comin’ from you, I was sane ‘til the lies started leakin’ the truth. You’d rewrite the past like it owed you an alibi, I memorized pain, now my brain’s like a lullaby. Tick-tock, every second I’m waitin’ on nothin’, Inbox full of maybes, read receipts are frontin’. I blamed me, then healed, then you popped like a glitch, Now my trust got a password I’ll never re-switch. I boxed with my demons, they learned how to duck, But your absence hit harder than any bad luck. If love’s a religion, I prayed way too much, Now faith feels like paperwork signed under duress. Maybe chaos is God with a twisted sense of humor, Feeds on broken men, call it spiritual tumor. I was built to endure but not meant to be numb, So I bleed on the beat ‘til the healing comes. Now I’m colder, but focused, got clarity sharpened, Turned the ashes you left into paths I can harness. I don’t chase what escapes, let it fade to the void, I been burned by the sun, still I aim to destroy Every doubt you implanted, uproot every lie, If I’m haunted by ghosts, I’ll teach ‘em to fly. I forgive, not forget, that’s a strength, not a scar, I learned love’s not a cage, it’s a door, not a bar. So I’ll yell at the heavens, then answer myself, I’m the proof I survived, I don’t need your help. To the universe listenin’, I’m still here, unbroken, Heart cracked, mic loaded, every verse is a token. You can ghost me, gaslight me, tear the sky apart— I’ll rebuild from the rubble and rhyme through the dark.