[INTRO]["Bloomer - The Antidote Vs. BILLION DAN'] Stockholm syndrome from my Basement window Crawling under my skin I ignored all the warnings And turned the brain I was born in To someone I don't know Oh [BUILD, BREAKDOWN, DROP] I'm on the brink of the brink Running dry when I bleed And I know when I go they won't remember me [BUILD, BREAKDOWN, DROP] But I'd kill to live for thrills Screaming out a melody I can't hear I poison everything 'till it wilts I need the antidote [BUILD, BREAKDOWN, DROP] Notice the darkness growing on you I need the antidote Give me catharsis a new point of view I need the antidote Ooh ooh I need the antidote Ooh ooh I need the antidote [INTERNAL MONOLOGUE RAP VERSE 1 – SPOKEN WORD] Voice in my head like, “Who you tryna be?” Scroll through lives on a cracked-up screen Every single highlight reel Got me question what of mine is real Talk back to the mirror like it owe me truth All I see is every single missed-proof youth All I feel is pressure in a three-piece suit On a body that was built for the concrete roots I been bargainin’ with shadows in fluorescent halls Trade a little bit of soul just to pay these walls Every “like”, every swipe, every late-night call Just a timestamp stamped on a slow freefall If I’m honest, I been scared of the calm ‘Cause the silence get loud when I’m off that charm So I laugh too hard, then I drink too far Then I pray that the mess might make me a star But the mask don’t fit like it did last year And the crowd in my skull chant, “Disappear” Still I clutch that rope in this undertow Murmur to myself, “Boy, you better grow” [BUILD, BREAKDOWN, DROP] (Down and out I'm out when I'm down and out) I'm not like you I'm not like you (Down and out I'm out when I'm down and out) I'm not like you I'm not like you (Down and out I'm out when I'm down and out) I'm not like you I'm not like you (Down and out I'm out when I'm down and out) I'm not like you [INTERNAL MONOLOGUE RAP VERSE 2 – SPOKEN WORD] Heart on airplane mode, still I feel that ping Ghost of every missed call, every burning bridge ring Got a playlist full of prophets in my earbuds preachin’ But I skip track 7 when it get too teachin’ Therapist say “Breathe”, I say “I been tryin’” But the lungs don’t listen when the wolf teeth climbin’ Every coping mechanism just a new made prison Every “I’m fine” really mean “I’m dyin’” I been talkin’ to the ceiling, it don’t talk back So I write these bars like an artifact Of a kid that believed he could bend these bars Into keys, unlockin’ these exit scars Maybe antidote ain’t in a neon vial Maybe it’s the choice just to stay one mile More than the pain that been growin’ inside One more deep breath that I still survive So if tomorrow don’t clap when I step on stage I’ll still be here, turnin’ panic to page Turnin’ venom to ink every night I choke ‘Til the venom itself turn antidote [BUILD, BREAKDOWN, DROP] I know when I go they won't remember me I need the antidote [EPIC BREAKDOWN, EPIC DROP BEAT ONLY] Notice the darkness growing on you I need the antidote Give me catharsis a new point of view I need the antidote Ooh ooh I need the antidote Ooh ooh I need the antidote Down and out I'm out when I'm down and out I can't keep or hold it together Down and out I'm out when I'm down and out I'll just be falling forever Down and out I'm out when I'm down and out I can't keep or hold it together Down and out I'm out when I'm down and out I'll just be falling forever [BUILD, BREAKDOWN, DROP] Down and out I'm out when I'm down and out I can't keep or hold it together Down and out I'm out when I'm down and out I'll just be falling forever[BUILD, BREAKDOWN, DROP]
