When the World Gets Too Close

Verse 1 The lights don’t just shine, they cut through my skin, Like silver little knives trying to get in. The room starts breathing, the walls start to bend, And I lose my place before I can pretend. A sound in the kitchen, a door closing hard, Turns into thunder inside of my heart. I’m not trying to break, I’m not trying to cry, But the world gets too close and I don’t know why. Pre-Chorus I feel every color, every word, every tone, Every look that says I should’ve known. One little spark and my whole sky burns, I wish I could explain how fast it turns. Chorus It’s a split second storm in my body, A wildfire under my bones. I’m screaming inside, but I look like I’m frozen, Trying to find my way home. I don’t need fixing, I need you to see me, Past the panic, past the tears. When I say it’s too much, please believe me, I’ve been drowning in sound for years. Verse 2 My chest becomes glass, my hands become wires, My thoughts run barefoot through fields full of fire. Every small thing grows teeth in my mind, And suddenly I’m falling behind. You say, “Talk to your therapist,” like closing a door, But baby, I was reaching for you from the floor. I know you don’t mean to leave me alone, But I need your arms more than a telephone. Pre-Chorus I’m not being dramatic, I’m not being cruel, I’m trying to survive what you call usual. The air gets heavy, my heartbeat screams, And I disappear somewhere between. Chorus It’s a split second storm in my body, A wildfire under my bones. I’m screaming inside, but I look like I’m frozen, Trying to find my way home. I don’t need fixing, I need you to hear me, When my nervous system shakes. I’m not trying to push you away, love, I’m just begging for a safer place. Bridge Inside me there’s a child with her hands on her ears, A woman in armor swallowing years. A sky full of sirens, a mouth full of rain, A heart that feels beauty the same way it feels pain. So hold me softer, lower the flame, Don’t make my feelings carry the blame. I am not broken, I am not wrong, I’ve just been loud inside for too long. Final Chorus It’s a split second storm in my body, But I’m still standing here. I’m more than the meltdown, more than the shutdown, More than what you fear. I need patience, I need shelter, I need love that doesn’t run. When the whole world turns too heavy, Please don’t make me hold it alone. Outro The lights are knives, the sounds are waves, But your gentle voice could make me brave. I’m not too much, I’m trying to survive— Please meet me where I am inside.