https://open.spotify.com/user/312g76jptvfcowfa53idlfhw7ypm?si=GkCn-V9hQ6KqFGlHnbwBVg https://music.youtube.com/channel/UCpzBzG0p3ar3Zf607dB0Q4Q?si=vpFO_JzRMfPAGh-4 Christmas and the bells ring, Noel and the children sing, I can’t do this any more, alone, where the heart is ain’t my home. I can’t wake up and not see you there I can’t spend all day with you only in my head, I can’t force myself not to care, I’d rather be Dead. Rather be than lost in gray, Rather be than be down all day, Eternity is no escape, Forever lasts all day every day No matter what I do Always I end without you. …Without you You were there again, tonight I hated waking, leaving you behind Somehow you seemed to know You didn’t cling, you just told me ‘go’ “I’ll still be here” Back into the gray I go, Leaving where I don’t belong, Where you wait for me Where I Want To Be Rather be than lost in gray, Rather be than be down all day, Eternity is no less gray, Forever lasts all day every day No matter what I do, Always I end without you, -Without you In the gray, Without you, In the gray, by myself Makes being awake Just gray. [double track vocals] Sunset turns to dusk and I say my prayers for you, Never knowing if they do you any Good, But if I can do nothing else, then prayers will have to do, [downtempo] [single voice][male] I lay me down to sleep, hoping you wait for me. [cello and violin resume] [male][singing] when you’re here I live a better life When you’re here I sleep through the night When you’re here Baby. Only when you’re here.