[Intro] [Piano, soft and mournful, modal scale] [Oud enters quietly] [Sung softly, elderly woman remembering] The angel came at midnight Said my name the way he used to say it (Miriam, Miriam) [Verse 1] [Piano and voice, intimate] I was the one who saw him first that morning When the stone was rolled away (rolled away) Not Peter, not the others Me—the one they'd call a whore someday (someday, ohhhhh) We built these teachings side by side Two halves completing one another (one another) The kingdom wasn't out there, it was in here That's what Yeshua and I discovered (we discovered, ahhhhh) [Pre-Chorus - THE HOOK, building] But the angel showed me what they'll do (showed me everything) How they'll twist the message that we knew (twist it all) Take the God we found in everyone And make it just a father and a son (ohhhhh, just the men) [Chorus - Full, sorrowful, belt on peaks] They erased our names from the gospel (erased, erased) Made me nothing but a sinner saved (just a sinner, ohhhhh) Took the feminine out of the divine Left half the holy behind (left us behind, left us behind) They'll forget I was apostle to the apostles (forget, forget) That he loved me most of all (loved me most, ahhhhh) They'll build churches made of stone and gold But miss the truth we tried to tell (miss it all, miss it all, ohhhhh) [Verse 2] [Stripped back, just piano, darbuka softly] Peter argued with me even then Said women couldn't hold this kind of knowledge (couldn't hold it) He was terrified of what it meant— That I saw deeper, that I'd been to the edge (to the edge, ohhhhh) We taught that God had no gender That the Good lived in each breathing soul (each soul, each soul) But they'll make it masculine and distant A king on a throne in hierarchical control (in control, ahhhhh) [Pre-Chorus - Building urgency] The angel said they'll call me prostitute (call me whore) Conflate me with the woman at his feet (I'm not her, I'm not her) Seven hundred years a church will teach That I'm the lesson in redemption When I was always free (always free, ohhhhh) [Chorus - More powerful, desperate] They erased our names from the gospel (erased, erased) Made me nothing but a sinner saved (just a sinner, ohhhhh) Took the feminine out of the divine Left half the holy behind (left us behind, left us behind) They'll forget I was the first to preach (forget, forget) That he trusted me with secret things (trusted me, ahhhhh) They'll build empires in his name But lose the balance that we tried to bring (tried to bring, tried to bring, ohhhhh) [Bridge - Tempo 90 BPM, desperate realization] [Oud intensifies, drums more urgent, strings building] [Belt, powerful, breaking] WITHOUT THE FEMININE THERE IS NO WHOLE! (no whole! no whole!) WITHOUT THE MOTHER, JUST A HOLLOW SOUL! (hollow! hollow!) [Rapid, urgent] They'll wage wars in his name Burn women who speak truth Call it heresy when we remember That God wore our faces too! (our faces! our faces! ahhhhh!) [Peak desperation, screaming grief] THEY'LL LOSE THE GOSPEL OF COMPASSION! (compassion!) MAKE IT DOGMA, MAKE IT RULES! (rules and chains!) FORGET THAT LOVE WAS ALL WE TAUGHT THEM! FORGET THAT WISDOM NEEDS THE FEMININE! (needs us! needs us! ohhhhh!) [Sudden drop - broken, whispered] And humanity will suffer for it (suffer, suffer) Century after century after century (ohhhhh, ohhhhh) [Final Chorus - Devastated, floating, sorrowful] [Stripped to piano and oud, no drums] They erased our names from the gospel (erased us) Made me nothing but repentant shame (shame, ohhhhh) Took the feminine out of divinity Left half of creation incomplete (incomplete, incomplete) They'll forget I taught beside him (forget, forget) That the Good has no gender at all (no gender, ahhhhh) They'll make hierarchy from our circle They'll make power from our love (from our love, ohhhhh) [Outro - Fading, sorrowful, no resolution] [Piano slowing, oud fading, whispered] The angel asked if I wanted to speak To leave some record for the ones who'd seek (who'd seek truth) But what good are my words When they'll be buried for a thousand years? (buried deep, ohhhhh) [Barely sung, acceptance] I was Miriam of Magdala Apostle, teacher, beloved (beloved, beloved) And they'll make me into something else (something less, ohhhhh) [Final whisper] They erased our names And the world will be colder for it (colder, colder, ahhhhh) [Piano final minor chord, unresolved] [Silence] [End]
