Never Gave Up

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[Verse 1]
You can't even look in the mirror./
Even though I hold it without shaking./
You are right to work on yourself./
Because you keep on breaking./
Shattered every promise./
Even swearing on your child,/
Your tongue releases evil./
But me I will not hide./
You took the portrait of our family./
Changed the entire landscape./
Repainting over me./
With an image of a new mate./

Deleting what we had to try and hide all your lies./
Rewriting all your words to try and act all surprised./
When I transcribe your texts into lyrics./
Your voice notes into song./
You can try to make me seem evil./
But that story don't match the logs./
I'm done giving you apologies./
That were never for my wrongs./
Like these scars./
I saved everything you gave me./
Before you logged off./

[Chorus 1]
I won't say anything behind your back that I wouldn't to your face,
But I can't give you face to face because your memories been erased,
You been sweeping up your mess, deleting things you once said,
But you can't hide from the monsters with who you once shared your bed,
You can try and rewrite the story, changing the script in your head,
But your footprint was heavy, so let this remind you instead:

[Verse 2]
You were mine, called my wife, promised me forever,
Had your daughter called me daddy, I did my best to support her,
Planned on flying here to Jersey, cross the Atlantic from the U.K.
Wanted to take my last name, swore to me this time you'd stay,
Label me as the bad guy, yea that's fucking fine.
I will take that title, and wear that badge with pride.
I'd rather you see me how you want to, instead of what I hide.
Because the truth is I've been dead inside for too much time.
I keep a sturdy posture, with shoulders broad and strong.
With quicksand beneath my feet it's getting harder to hold on.
The noose of expectation tightens faster as I sink.
In one second it could be over, 'fore I had a chance to blink.

[Pre-Chorus]
I think the pills aren't working, or the liquor washed them out.
If I'm supposed to be so happy, why do I live in doubt?
Where is the relief that the therapist talks about.
The shadows keep me drowning, and I'm scared to reach out.
I don't want to take you with me, not to a place so dark.
You should never have to see my pain, my hate, my blackened heart.
Burnt and damaged, never given the chance to heal.
You can label me the bad guy, it's who I am for real.

[Chorus 2]
Why should I hide behind emotions, hide my horns with a mask?
Why should I try to change my image into something that won't last.
Why should I fake what I'm feeling, just so you can stick around?
Why should I lie to myself, trying to smile through a frown.
It fucking hurts and I'm tired, I'm down onto my knees.
Praying to a higher power, that never seems to answer me.
It's not weakness to admit that I can't continue on.
It's realization that without death, they won't miss me if I'm gone.

[Verse 3]
I won't say sorry anymore, not for a lack of remorse,
I've picked myself up, from what you shattered on the floor,
I latched my emotions, as I locked all the doors,
I won't apologize for trying to follow your course,
I let you take the reins, and guide what we became,
But you found a new home, left me standing in the rain,
The roof had holes from the storms, that you caused with your pain,
And the mirror on the wall doesn't reflect me the same.
I have changed, maybe for the worse, but it no longer matters,
I'm living with your curse, I've grown from the fights,
I've listened to your words, so even though this hurts,
I thank you for the lessons I've learned.

[Bridge]
I never gave up on you.
I stopped chasing who you once were.
I never abandoned you.
I just lost my place in your world.
You changed with the seasons.
As the wind blew cold.
A new version of you.
Replacing the old.
They say time heals wounds.
But the scars you left won't close.
Because the clock stopped ticking.
When you chose to break our home.

[Outro]
I trusted you with everything, every dark secret I kept.
You weaponized my trauma, twisting the knife while you left.
You were a nightmare, wrapped in the illusion of a dream.
You were a mistake, but a lesson life thought I would need.

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[Intro] I know who the fuck I am, but you can not say the same. You won't even have the courage after this to speak my name, And for that I don't care, I'm done playing your games, You will never be able to paint me back into your frame. [Verse 1] You can't even look in the mirror./ Even though I hold it without shaking./ You are right to work on yourself./ Because you keep on breaking./ Shattered every promise./ Even swearing on your child,/ Your tongue releases evil./ But me I will not hide./ You took the portrait of our family./ Changed the entire landscape./ Repainting over me./ With an image of a new mate./ Deleting what we had to try and hide all your lies./ Rewriting all your words to try and act all surprised./ When I transcribe your texts into lyrics./ Your voice notes into song./ You can try to make me seem evil./ But that story don't match the logs./ I'm done giving you apologies./ That were never for my wrongs./ Like these scars./ I saved everything you gave me./ Before you logged off./ [Chorus 1] I won't say anything behind your back that I wouldn't to your face, But I can't give you face to face because your memories been erased, You been sweeping up your mess, deleting things you once said, But you can't hide from the monsters with who you once shared your bed, You can try and rewrite the story, changing the script in your head, But your footprint was heavy, so let this remind you instead: [Verse 2] You were mine, called my wife, promised me forever, Had your daughter called me daddy, I did my best to support her, Planned on flying here to Jersey, cross the Atlantic from the U.K. Wanted to take my last name, swore to me this time you'd stay, Label me as the bad guy, yea that's fucking fine. I will take that title, and wear that badge with pride. I'd rather you see me how you want to, instead of what I hide. Because the truth is I've been dead inside for too much time. I keep a sturdy posture, with shoulders broad and strong. With quicksand beneath my feet it's getting harder to hold on. The noose of expectation tightens faster as I sink. In one second it could be over, 'fore I had a chance to blink. [Pre-Chorus] I think the pills aren't working, or the liquor washed them out. If I'm supposed to be so happy, why do I live in doubt? Where is the relief that the therapist talks about. The shadows keep me drowning, and I'm scared to reach out. I don't want to take you with me, not to a place so dark. You should never have to see my pain, my hate, my blackened heart. Burnt and damaged, never given the chance to heal. You can label me the bad guy, it's who I am for real. [Chorus 2] Why should I hide behind emotions, hide my horns with a mask? Why should I try to change my image into something that won't last. Why should I fake what I'm feeling, just so you can stick around? Why should I lie to myself, trying to smile through a frown. It fucking hurts and I'm tired, I'm down onto my knees. Praying to a higher power, that never seems to answer me. It's not weakness to admit that I can't continue on. It's realization that without death, they won't miss me if I'm gone. [Verse 3] I won't say sorry anymore, not for a lack of remorse, I've picked myself up, from what you shattered on the floor, I latched my emotions, as I locked all the doors, I won't apologize for trying to follow your course, I let you take the reins, and guide what we became, But you found a new home, left me standing in the rain, The roof had holes from the storms, that you caused with your pain, And the mirror on the wall doesn't reflect me the same. I have changed, maybe for the worse, but it no longer matters, I'm living with your curse, I've grown from the fights, I've listened to your words, so even though this hurts, I thank you for the lessons I've learned. [Bridge] I never gave up on you. I stopped chasing who you once were. I never abandoned you. I just lost my place in your world. You changed with the seasons. As the wind blew cold. A new version of you. Replacing the old. They say time heals wounds. But the scars you left won't close. Because the clock stopped ticking. When you chose to break our home. [Outro] I trusted you with everything, every dark secret I kept. You weaponized my trauma, twisting the knife while you left. You were a nightmare, wrapped in the illusion of a dream. You were a mistake, but a lesson life thought I would need.

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