Freakquency Flush: Scoliosis | Bent, Not Broken

[Soft distant waves, deep slow drum, a singing bowl rings out] [Spoken, soft and slow] Arrive. Let the floor take all of your weight. The water is warm here, and deep, and it holds you. Nothing to carry. Nothing to straighten. [Pause] [Spoken, warm] This is a gentle flush for scoliosis, for a back that learned to bend. Together we'll open one doorway: the first time your back spoke up, the worst time, the last time, or the worry about the next time. Whichever wants to come forward, let it. No digging. No forcing. [Spoken, plain — not sung] If a doctor, a brace or a physio plan is part of your care, this sits beside it, never instead of it. [Pause] [Spoken, warm] Now the breath. Let each exhale leave through the mouth, like mist lifting off the water. [Spoken, slow, unhurried — roughly one count per second, no melody, no rap cadence] In... one... two... three... four... ...hold... one... two... three... four... [Spoken, slower here — exhale is unhurried, roughly double the pace of the inhale] Out... one......two......three......four......five......six......seven......eight... ...hold... one... two... three... four... [Pause] [Spoken, slow, unhurried — roughly one count per second, no melody, no rap cadence] In... one... two... three... four... ...hold... one... two... three... four... [Spoken, slower here — exhale is unhurried, roughly double the pace of the inhale] Out... one......two......three......four......five......six......seven......eight... ...hold... one... two... three... four... [Pause] [Spoken, slow, unhurried — roughly one count per second, no melody, no rap cadence] In... one... two... three... four... ...hold... one... two... three... four... [Spoken, slower here — exhale is unhurried, roughly double the pace of the inhale] Out... one......two......three......four......five......six......seven......eight... ...hold... one... two... three... four... [Pause] [Spoken, tender] Let the moment come. Notice where your back holds it. Low, or in the middle. One side more than the other. Just notice. The water has you. [Pause] Whose weight is this? Some of it may never have been yours. Someone else's worry. Someone else's storm. You can set it down on the sand. [Pause] Maybe you stood between two people you loved, pulled one way, then the other, not knowing who to please. Your body leaned to keep the peace. That was love. [Pause] Maybe every "good job" came with a "but," until trying hard felt like waiting to be judged. Little one, you were always enough. [Pause] Maybe your direction was chosen for you, and you bent around it to survive. Maybe someone long before you twisted away from harm, or carried heavy loads a long, long way. The bend kept you safe. You can thank it. [Pause] If anger rises, or frustration, or a wish to get even, let it. The water holds all of it. Ask softly: how did holding so tight keep me safe? [Pause] You gave more than you received. You can receive now. [Pause] [Spoken, flowing] Now the tide rises from the base of the spine. Red as cedar, steady as stone. The low back rests. You are supported. [Soft toning: "Ohh"] [Pause] Below the navel, orange water, soft as a rose. The upper belly glows gold as ginger. Your direction is yours again. [Soft toning: "Ahh"] [Pause] The center of the chest opens, green as a garden after rain. The middle back softens. Old burdens rinse out with the tide. [Soft toning: "Ay"] [Pause] The throat cools, blue as eucalyptus. Swallowed words loosen. Indigo calm between the brows. Violet light out the top of the head. [Pause] [Spoken, slow] Imagine a gentle magnet just under your chin. Slowly it sweeps up over your face, over the crown, down to the back of your neck, drawing the old charge up and out. [Pause] Again. Chin, face, crown, neck. Let it go. [Pause] A third time. Silt lifting. Clear water staying. [Pause] And a fourth. All that's ready, released. [Pause] [Spoken, warm, matter-of-fact] One more way to let it go, everywhere it began, everywhere it was stored: Right and Wrong, Good and Bad, Point of Creation and Point of Destruction, All Nine, Shorts, Boys and Beyonds. [Pause] [Spoken, soft] Feel the water clear around you. Your spine can be exactly as it is. Bent, not broken. Deeply supported. [Pause] When you rise, drink some water. Move gently, a slow walk, a wiggle, whatever feels good. Keep the river moving. With infinite love and gratitude — and so it is. [Waves slowly fading]