[intro] cashing in on the trauma, not selling my soul turning the receipts of my pain into gold the currency for our future. Healed my demons before my son arrived, Escaped the devil himself, I’m the one who survived, life has been a crazy ride Now the angels are on our side [verse 1] I own the role I played , I was the one who chose to stay , My past became the magnet for the games he played. Grew up fast the morning I found my nana dead , Just a lost girl fatherless and chaos in her head . Violence and grief followed like a shadow , was fighting all demons alone in the dark, The day I met the devil I was already damaged from the start when he used his hands and words like weapons it felt familiar to my heart . [pre-chorus] saying everything i’ve never said hoping it helps somebody everything is temporary it’ll be okay it’s not healthy to hold it all in my chest, got a gift worth sharing and my son deserves the best [chorus] I’ll be damned if he sees the world I’ve seen Protecting him from walking where I’ve been I fought my demons, stared ‘em in the eye Giving my boy a clear blue sky The past is in the past, that’s not our life [verse 2] Tried to run for years before becoming a mom. all the bridges burnt before I moved on I’m resilient but nothing ever broke me like the sound of my baby’s screams when the courts forced him to visit the Devil I thank God everyday that he was young enough to wipe most the memory clean. And the devil is now a ghost that my baby doesn’t see . [pre-chorus] saying everything i’ve never said hoping it helps somebody everything is temporary it’ll be okay it’s not healthy to hold it all in my chest, got a gift worth sharing and my son deserves the best [chorus] [chorus] I’ll be damned if he sees the world I’ve seen Protecting him from walking where I’ve been I fought my demons, stared ‘em in the eye Giving my boy a clear blue sky The past is in the past, that’s not our life [bridge] Life’s been like a movie which isn’t always good God I’m praying on my knees give our movie the happy ending that it needs, I’ll do whatever it takes as long as I can do it with grace [outro] [fade out] I’ll be damned if he sees the world I’ve seen Protecting him from walking where I’ve been I fought my demons, stared ‘em in the eye Giving my boy a clear blue sky The past is in the past, that’s not our life Glad I got that off my chest laid the past to rest Because my baby deserves the best
