[Verse 1] I remember hospital lights A mask and a voice counting down from ten Then waking up confused Not knowing where I'd been I remember doors slamming Mum and Dad at war again Back when home still felt like home Before everything changed Seven years old and she was gone The world got colder overnight The man I'd run to for protection Became the shadow in my life I learned mistakes could hurt Learned fear before I learned to fly And somewhere in those broken years I started hiding in lies [Pre-Chorus] Not because I wanted to deceive Not because I wanted to pretend I just learned survival young And carried it into the man I am [Chorus] I'm tracing every scar Trying to find where it began Following the footprints Of a frightened little man Looking through the wreckage Of every road I've travelled on Trying to understand myself Trying to right what's wrong And if you wonder why I struggle Why I sometimes lose my way I'm digging through my history So I don't throw us away [Verse 2] I remember Aunt Margaret One of the angels in my life The kind of soul that makes the world Feel safer just by standing by And when she left Something broke that never healed the same I started chasing numbness Trying to outrun pain Sleeping in a tree at sixteen Too scared to close my eyes below Carrying my whole world In places nobody knows Years of feeling nothing Years of simply getting by Breathing but not living Laughing with a hollow smile [Pre-Chorus] Not because I didn't care Not because my heart was gone I buried everything so deep I forgot where it belonged [Chorus] I'm tracing every scar Trying to find where it began Following the footprints Of a frightened little man Looking through the wreckage Of every road I've travelled on Trying to understand myself Trying to right what's wrong And if you wonder why I struggle Why I sometimes lose my way I'm digging through my history So I don't throw us away [Bridge] I won't blame the past For choices that I've made But maybe understanding it Can help me break these chains Because for the first time in my life I don't want somewhere to hide I don't want another story I don't want another disguise I just want the truth Even when it hurts to say [Final Chorus] I'm tracing every scar Every memory and mistake Trying to become the man You deserve when you say my name The boy I used to be Spent his life afraid of loss But loving you has shown me Some battles aren't meant to be fought So if I keep on searching It's not for who I used to be It's for the man I'm still becoming And the future I can finally see [Outro] I am not my past... I am not my pain... I'm just a man Learning how to be real again...
