[Verse 1] My heart almost killed me, but somehow I stayed, Then came the harder part, living that way. Couldn’t work, couldn’t leave, couldn’t choose where we’d go, I lost so much more than I’d ever let show. We moved in with her sister, though I begged her not to, And slowly I watched her take what I held onto. She’d play mother to children who already had me, While I sat there too sick to be who I should be. And my wife had a way of reminding me then I was broken, dependent, less of a man. So I’d wait for the night and escape when I could, To a world where, for once, I still felt understood. [Verse 2] I was playing Blue Mage/Thief when I first saw your name, You were healing a party, just playing the game. I don’t know when the talking became every day, Or when seeing you there started keeping me sane. You were somewhere across an impossible sea, But somehow you knew more of what happened to me Than the woman asleep just a few feet away, Who could tear me apart without much left to say. You’d listen while I told you what happened that night, Never telling me what I should feel or who’s right. You’d sit talking with me till I finally calmed down, And somehow I’d breathe when you were around. [Chorus] You were my White Mage when I couldn’t heal, When I stopped even knowing what normal should feel. When the person I loved made me feel thrown away, You were waiting for me at the end of the day. There was an ocean between us, a world in between, Just a name and a character there on my screen. But when everything real only added more pain, I could log in online And find you again. [Verse 3] We always had fun, laughing at the same jokes, Taking little shots whenever one of us spoke. I’d laugh every time you said something bizarre, And you’d laugh at my accent each time I said “cah.” We’d argue about words, how they’re supposed to be said, Then somehow talk hours when I should’ve been in bed. And those little differences still make me smile, Because they made that damn ocean disappear for a while. You never saw the house where I felt pushed aside. You never saw all the nights that I swallowed my pride. Never watched someone else try to step in my place, Or saw what all of that did to my face. But you knew. Somehow, you knew. [Chorus] You were my White Mage when I couldn’t heal, When I stopped even knowing what normal should feel. When the person I loved made me feel thrown away, You were waiting for me at the end of the day. There was an ocean between us, a world in between, Just a name and a character there on my screen. But when everything real only added more pain, I could log in online And find you again. [Bridge] I remember each mission, each battle, each fight, Every place that we went, every long gaming night. But more than the battles or places we knew, What I remember most is just talking to you. I remember the nights when I couldn’t pretend, Just waiting for everyone’s day there to end. Then your name would appear and I finally could say All the things I’d been holding inside me all day. You never said somehow you’d make it all right, You just stayed there and listened night after night. You couldn’t fix what I was living through then, But you helped me survive it till morning again. [Final Chorus] You were my White Mage when my heart had already failed, When the life that I’d built had completely derailed. When I couldn’t be strong and had nowhere to stay, You made being broken feel less every day. There was an ocean between us, but somehow back then, You were closer to me than the people within. The same walls, the same rooms, the same miserable place, Because you saw who I was when I felt erased. And maybe we met in a world that wasn’t real, But you were there helping me somehow to heal. Through the pain, through the nights, through the life I was in, You helped me hold on till the morning again.
