Alone Tonight

Yodelcore, Industrial Metal, Glitchcore, EDM, Alternative Metal

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STUDIO

There’s a noise
when no one answers.
It’s not silence,
it’s me
folding in on myself.
(Yo... la... ei...)

I wake up to a room
that knows my name too well.
Walls memorize my breathing,
no one else can tell.
I scroll past conversations
I’m not part of anymore.
Every laugh’s a locked door
I forgot the code for.
I try to swear at the mirror,
say how bad this f -YO-LA-EI- feels
but even my mouth
won’t say it straight.

Lonely doesn’t scream,
it repeats.
Same thought, same hour,
same empty seat.
(Yo-yo-yo...)

I’m mother-YO-DA-LEI alone tonight,
talking to shadows like they reply.
I’m damn-YO-DE-LO tired of being “fine,”
but lonely looks better
when it rhymes.
yo-la-EI, yo-la-OH
hear me laugh it away.
If I joke it loud enough
maybe it stays fake.

(Yo-la-ei! yo-la-ei!)
(Yo-la-oh!)

I cancel plans I never had,
still feel stood up.
Tell myself I like the quiet,
that’s a bull -EI-YO-LA!- lie
I rehearse being honest
then choke on the line.
I type “you good?”
delete it twice.
Being ignored hurts less
than being precise.

Lonely doesn’t knock,
it waits.
Pulls up a chair,
eats off your plate.

I’m mother-YO-DA-LEI alone again,
my name sounds weird
when no one says it.
I’m so-YO-DE-LO sick of pretending
this room isn’t closing in.
yo-la-EI, yo-la-OH
sing it sweet, sing it wrong.
If pain’s a crowd,
why am I still alone?

I wanna scream f-YO-LA-EI-LA-EI-LA!- how empty this gets
at 2:17
when even my thoughts
won’t text me back.

yo-la-ei-la, yo-le-yo-la
curse-it-out but censor the trauma
ei-yo-la-ri, ei-yo-lay
say it in jumps so it slips away
yo-de-lo-DAMN-yo-de-lo-HELL
every swear stuck in a yodel shell
flip the pitch, crack the chest
this is how I bleed my best

I’m so YO-LA-EI lonely it hurts to breathe,
screaming vowels where words should be.
If I say it clean
I might not survive,
so I shred it into notes
and let it fly.
YO-LA-EI!
YO-LA-EI!

Maybe I’m not broken,
maybe I’m just
too quiet for this world.
(Yo... la... ei...)

If someone heard me
without the punchline,
would they stay
for the ugly parts?
I don’t need saving,
just a sign
that I exist
outside my heart.

I’m mother-YO-DA-LEI alone tonight,
but I’m still here,
still alive.
I’m damn-YO-DE-LO tired, yeah,
but I’m not done this time.

yo-la-EI, yo-la-OH
this one’s not a joke.
If I sing it uncensored
you’ll hear how close
I was.

...yo... la... ei...

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There’s a noise when no one answers. It’s not silence, it’s me folding in on myself. (Yo... la... ei...) I wake up to a room that knows my name too well. Walls memorize my breathing, no one else can tell. I scroll past conversations I’m not part of anymore. Every laugh’s a locked door I forgot the code for. I try to swear at the mirror, say how bad this f -YO-LA-EI- feels but even my mouth won’t say it straight. Lonely doesn’t scream, it repeats. Same thought, same hour, same empty seat. (Yo-yo-yo...) I’m mother-YO-DA-LEI alone tonight, talking to shadows like they reply. I’m damn-YO-DE-LO tired of being “fine,” but lonely looks better when it rhymes. yo-la-EI, yo-la-OH hear me laugh it away. If I joke it loud enough maybe it stays fake. (Yo-la-ei! yo-la-ei!) (Yo-la-oh!) I cancel plans I never had, still feel stood up. Tell myself I like the quiet, that’s a bull -EI-YO-LA!- lie I rehearse being honest then choke on the line. I type “you good?” delete it twice. Being ignored hurts less than being precise. Lonely doesn’t knock, it waits. Pulls up a chair, eats off your plate. I’m mother-YO-DA-LEI alone again, my name sounds weird when no one says it. I’m so-YO-DE-LO sick of pretending this room isn’t closing in. yo-la-EI, yo-la-OH sing it sweet, sing it wrong. If pain’s a crowd, why am I still alone? I wanna scream f-YO-LA-EI-LA-EI-LA!- how empty this gets at 2:17 when even my thoughts won’t text me back. yo-la-ei-la, yo-le-yo-la curse-it-out but censor the trauma ei-yo-la-ri, ei-yo-lay say it in jumps so it slips away yo-de-lo-DAMN-yo-de-lo-HELL every swear stuck in a yodel shell flip the pitch, crack the chest this is how I bleed my best I’m so YO-LA-EI lonely it hurts to breathe, screaming vowels where words should be. If I say it clean I might not survive, so I shred it into notes and let it fly. YO-LA-EI! YO-LA-EI! Maybe I’m not broken, maybe I’m just too quiet for this world. (Yo... la... ei...) If someone heard me without the punchline, would they stay for the ugly parts? I don’t need saving, just a sign that I exist outside my heart. I’m mother-YO-DA-LEI alone tonight, but I’m still here, still alive. I’m damn-YO-DE-LO tired, yeah, but I’m not done this time. yo-la-EI, yo-la-OH this one’s not a joke. If I sing it uncensored you’ll hear how close I was. ...yo... la... ei...

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