Spiral Not Circle

[Verse 1] Face toward the wall The back opens wide Something in me knows How many times I’ll rise The mind says ten more Then ten more after And somewhere in the numbers The body disappears [Pre-Chorus] A circle comes back To the same place unchanged But I have been here before And I am not the same [Chorus] Nnn spiral not a circle Nnn same ground, different depth Nnn the mind narrates last year Nnn the body already left [Verse 2] Seventy-one The story comes again I always fall here I’ve never gone beyond this But something is quieter now The spine knows something The mind is still remembering What the body has released [Pre-Chorus] Returning is the motion Not arriving, not advancing Just the same place Holding something new [Chorus] Nnn spiral not a circle Nnn same ground, different depth Nnn the mind narrates last year Nnn the body already left [Bridge] What if going in again Is the only way forward What if the place you keep returning to Is waiting for who you are now A little loosens Every time you come back Not by forcing Just by returning Until the grip Forgets itself [Chorus] Nnn spiral not a circle Nnn same ground, different depth Nnn the mind narrates last year Nnn the body already left [Outro] Think of what you return to Don’t ask how far you’ve come Ask what it would feel like To meet it as you are Right now Not who you were The last time you stood here Nnn you may find You already have Nnn