Hear my desperate call... it’s tougher than it should be. I need you here and now. Here and now. You are the only one who can give me closure. I need it, badly... Whatever it could be. Whether you even cared, If you still do... if you never did... ANSWER ME! Bring back your mesmerising gaze ASAP! You have got some unfinished business with me. Don’t ever think that I’m the one who got away. You let me be. You did nothing, or not enough... And you let me flee... How much longer should my heart ache? Hear my ridiculous call... it’s sillier than it ever should be. I need you here and now. Here and now. I don’t understand. How I kept you that close, for so long. How... how... back where we first met... The days could be that painfully long without you in sight. How I could still feel that painfully wrong. I never want to be mad at you. There is enough in this shitty human world for that. Yet it is coming, gradually, without fail. I am so... so mad at you... Bring back your mesmerising gaze ASAP! You have got some unfinished business with me. Neither of us can recover the loss of more than a decade. Why would I be the only one to mourn that? Show your smart poker face around, and tell me! No tricks, no playing around, we are too old for this shit. Tell me clearly: did you love me? Am I wasting the small energy left in the tank on you? Is it all that I will ever amount to? A pointless waste? Hear my pretentious call... it hurts more than it will ever do. I need you here and now. Here and now. You don’t know... you may not care... But since I lost track of my feelings thirty years ago... I said those three little words only once... to you. I didn’t allow myself to love... In deep belief that nobody could love me back. Yet I chose to say it to you, and you brushed it off. Called me a liar as well... You really do have some unfinished business lady. There is a lot that you need to be forgiven for... Bring back your mesmerising gaze ASAP! Don’t ever think that I’m the one who got away. You let me be. You did nothing, or not enough... And you let me flee... Still... I wish you well, in every way. But even that is not allowed. You covered your tracks, and those who have the means to help... Simply won’t... I am mad at them too. A fool’s errand is endless, I am proof indeed. You are the only one who can give me closure. DO IT!
