[Intro] [Key: C# minor | BPM: 92] [soft fingerpicked electric guitar | distant analog pad | warm sub bass | sparse electronic percussion] [close, smooth vocal] I used to think I'd figure it out If I gave it enough time Learn the names Remember birthdays Ask what's going on with your life I thought friendship was a door You just had to leave unlocked But now I know there's a difference Between a door and keeping watch [Verse 1] [gentle beat enters | muted electronic kick | organic bass] I lose touch in little pieces Miss a call, forget to write See your message while I'm busy Tell myself I'll do it tonight Then tonight becomes a weekend Then a month becomes a year And by the time I think to call you Calling feels a little weird You stop asking where I've been I stop asking where you are Nothing happened Nothing broke We just slowly got too far I've watched this happen often Enough to know the shape Someone reaches out I disappear And eventually they stop [Pre-Chorus] [warm synth swell | guitar continues] It's not that I don't love people It's not that I don't care I just never learned the little things That keep somebody there [Chorus] [full organic/electronic groove | wide ambient synths | melodic bass] So I think I'll stay home Let the years do what they do I've been trying to hold onto people With hands that never follow through There's nothing left to promise And nobody left to blame Some people need a little distance I turn distance into my game I think I'll stay home It's easier this way I can miss you from a distance And never make you stay [Verse 2] [beat becomes slightly more rhythmic | soft guitar harmonics | subtle synth arpeggio] I have numbers in my contacts I don't recognize at all People I was close with once Who'd probably answer if I called But what do you say after years? "Hey, sorry I disappeared" Do you tell them you were struggling Or admit you just weren't there? I've made plans and cancelled plans I've said, "We'll do it soon" I've watched good people make excuses For my absence from the room Eventually the invitations Start arriving less and less Not because they stopped liking me They just learned what I would do And I can't even blame them I wouldn't wait around For someone who keeps vanishing Whenever life gets loud [Pre-Chorus] [pads rise | drums pull back] It's not that I don't love people I wish that made it work But love is more than thinking of you When I'm driving home from work [Instrumental Break] [ambient synth bloom | fingerpicked guitar loop | soft electronic pulse returns | warm bass] [no vocals] [Chorus] [full groove | layered smooth vocals | ambient guitar texture] So I think I'll stay home Let the years do what they do I've been trying to hold onto people With hands that never follow through There's nothing left to promise And nobody left to blame Some people need a little distance I turn distance into my game I think I'll stay home It's easier this way I can miss you from a distance And never make you stay [Outro] [guitar and synth gradually thinning | distant room-like electronic texture, no live ambience] [soft final guitar harmonic]
