[[Spoken Intro] Ten years old Celebrity house They needed a star I needed a childhood [Verse 1] Hope in the lobby, first shrink, clean light He call dem out on dey shit, said the home ain't right Parents arrogant, instant-fix eyes Vicarious dream they deny, then they fire the guy Fourteen more after that, same waiting room smell Pills da cure, hourly bell They ignore the kid, they pay the hour Anti-advocacy dressed up as power [Chorus] Take me back to the first shrink The one who told the truth and made the palace blink Not the fourteen who nodded for the check The first one who saw the wreck [Verse 2] Frustration in the call sheet, acting, singing, sold Behavioral weather nobody controlled Counseling limited, then the carousel spin Every new couch learned to cave to them Despair in the mirror in a famous hall Determination through strife, I still take the call I try the work, they try the pill I try to talk, they try to still [Spoken] "Dey get paid dey hourly." [Verse 3] Eighteen Almost went Don't need the picture Need the sentence Parents more worried if he go da cash go too Than the boy in the bathroom trying to make it through Backslide like a chorus I didn't write Then I left the house that confused love with light [Bridge] I walked back to the first office Same ethical spine No instant miracle Just a longer line He didn't shrink from the parents So I could shrink the problem I shrank my problems I didn't shrink me [Verse 4] Stabilize, breathe, craft for my reason Resurgence in the work without the treason Renewal in a Saturday that last Hope for the future I can hold at last Same voice they sold New soul I keep Success that don't cost me My sleep [Final Chorus] Take me back to the first shrink The one who told the truth and made the palace blink I left the fourteen I kept the one I shrank my problems Now the day can come [Outro — instrumental swell] Hmmmmm, uhuh;uh (with horns playing) Hmmmmmm (with violins playing) No more waiting room Just the rest of my life
