One Quiet Moment

I keep reaching out my hands Trying to help somebody stand But everything I touch somehow Falls apart right in my hands I wanted to be useful I wanted to be kind But lately I don't recognize The person in my mind I never meant to hurt you God, I never meant that way But my mind keeps seeing wreckage In every mistake I've made I'm tired of fighting battles Nobody else can see Tired of wondering if everyone Would be better without me But maybe I don't want to disappear Maybe that's not what I mean Maybe I'm just tired of fighting To find some peace inside of me I just want quiet I just want peace I want these thoughts inside my head To finally let me breathe I don't want darkness I don't want goodbye I just want one quiet moment Where I don't have to fight Underneath the mess and fear There's still somebody trying Still reaching through the pain Still loving while she's crying There's still a heart that's beating Still hoping someone sees The person underneath the sadness— The real and hurting me Maybe I'm more than the damage That I'm terrified I've done Maybe I'm more than every voice That tells me I should run Maybe I was never asking For too much all along Maybe I just wanted someone To tell me I belong I just want quiet I just want peace I want to lay these heavy thoughts down And finally breathe Maybe I don't need to vanish Maybe I don't need to go Maybe I just need to be held Until I finally know... I'm still here... And maybe that's enough. Maybe I deserve To be seen. To be understood. To be loved. And for just one quiet moment... To finally be At peace.