Maybe I work too hard and break too easy Maybe I smile too much when I should scream Maybe they never saw the cracks beneath me While I held their world together at the seams I don’t want flowers, I don’t want preaching I don’t want verses wrapped in hope and light Sometimes I lie awake and feel it creeping I have suicide on my mind tonight They say “just talk,” but they don’t listen They ask “what’s wrong?” then change the theme They don’t see me fighting not to vanish Or the silence buried underneath my screen I’m not crying out, I’m not collapsing I’m just tired in ways I can’t define This isn’t goodbye, it’s just me breathing I have suicide on my mind And I keep walking like I’m normal But the weight cuts deeper with each stride Don’t panic — I’m still here, still coping But yeah… I have suicide on my mind --- Don’t send angels, don’t send answers Don’t pretend that hope can pay this price This isn’t rage, it isn’t weakness This is me… just turning off the lights I’ve said my peace in quiet places I’ve left my name behind the sighs And if you read these words tomorrow— Know this is me saying goodbye
