Drop a Gear and Disappear

[Intro] night drips down the visor in crooked streaks city hum shaking through the frame her silence presses against my ribs and i cant tell whats rain and whats slipping loose inside me [Verse] helmet fogged heartbeat dragging slow she wont answer and the quiet feels carved tears slip somewhere behind the glass rain taps outside in a rhythm that doesnt match nothing lines up tonight not the sky not the pulse (not the ache) [pre chorus] engine pulse rising under my ribs thoughts spinning louder than the road not afraid of death never been the fear its the thought of not living that keeps me twisting forward [Chorus] so i drop a gear and disappear lights bending around me like a warning chasing something real through the static smear riding past the places where i used to breathe [Verse] every mile stretches out like a confession storm outside storm inside no symmetry wish she would call but the quiet stays cold so i push the throttle not for speed but for something that feels like choosing [pre chorus] engine pulse rising under my ribs thoughts spinning louder than the road not afraid of death never been the fear its the thought of not living that keeps me twisting forward [Chorus] so i drop a gear and disappear lights bending around me like a warning chasing something real through the static smear riding past the places where i used to breathe [Verse] road stretches out like a promise i dont trust visor fogged with a mix of rain and whatever i wont admit maybe living means feeling every bruise maybe dying is easier than the truth i keep circling [Bridge] i ride because stopping feels like sinking i ride because silence feels like thinking and thinking means facing the hollow places the missed calls the empty spaces the fear that ive been breathing without living the fear that ive been moving without meaning rain streaks down the visor in broken lines tears blur inside, my heart not fine the road pulls me forward not gentle not kind just honest and honesty hurts but it keeps me awake keeps me real keeps me here even when she isnt even when the world feels tilted even when the rhythm breaks the hurt just takes and takes [Chorus] so i drop a gear and disappear lights bending around me like a warning chasing something real through the static smear riding past the places where i used to breathe [Outro] helmet fogged, heartbeat dragging slow she wont answer and the night swallows the rest so i drop a gear and disappear not afraid of death only afraid of fading before i ever lived