Silhouette of trees Painted skies of blue Mountains stretching Into something I once thought I knew Is there another path for me? Somewhere to finally rest my feet? Some place.. Where I don't have to prove I'm worth it I waited for a moment Where courage would arrive Give me the fierceness I needed Just to survive this life But I kept standing at the ocean edge Watching daylight disappear The sun sinking in the water As I stood sinking here…. When suddenly it reached back Through the dying light And kissed me on the cheek As if everything would be all right For one beautiful second I almost believed… It's like a garden of red rose bushes Beautiful from where I stand, Petals showing where love is waiting, Or maybe just another one falling How can I make anything beautiful When sadness swallows me whole? How do I let go, When I doubt tomorrow? The numbness melts through me Every time I try to grow I reach for something worthy But I don't know what worthy means anymore I changed into someone I didn’t know Did everything they asked Did all I can Yet somehow... I’m still a mistake they Don’t want to love I keep asking in silence Is there another way? I keep asking the ocean Take away my pain, Nothing circles back It's like a garden of red rose bushes Beautiful from where I stand Every petal tells me love is waiting Each thorn cuts through my hand How can I make anything beautiful When sadness swallows me whole? How do I believe in tomorrow When today won’t let go Sometimes it feels like sand sinking Beneath the weight of me The land I was never supposed to stand on Was never meant to carry me And I still reach… For something Anything That might save me… But Maybe I was never falling On ground that kept changing Maybe I wasn’t disappearing? Maybe there is another path Beyond the purple mountains Maybe… I will have to leave the shore? Let the garden keep its roses I’ll leave the thorns behind I don’t have to bleed for beauty I won’t bow to their cruelty If the sadness comes to swallow me I’ll keep walking through it If I sink beneath the surface I’ll reach back for the blue Silhouette of trees Painted skies of blue Mountains stretching… And somewhere beyond them Is where I have to go… Goodbye, today… I’m going to find tomorrow…
