[Intro] (yeah…) (uhh) (mm) I know better Still do it [Chorus] I keep going back to what hurts (what hurts) Like pain got my name on it I say I’m done, I say it’s over Then I miss it when I’m lonely (mm) I know it’s bad for my health (for my health) Still reach for it first (still do) I don’t know why I don’t learn (why) I keep going back to what hurts (what hurts) [Long Verse] I swear I recognize the warning signs I just ignore them every time I tell myself “this time is different” Like the past didn’t already prove I’m lying (lying) I know how this ends, I’ve been here before (before) Same tight chest, same locked door I remember saying “never again” (never) Then going back like I forgot what it did (forgot) I get comfortable in chaos (chaos) Peace feels weird when I’m not used to it (not used) I crave intensity, not stability (yeah) Even when it’s slowly ruining me (ruining me) I confuse familiarity with love (love) Confuse attachment with trust (uhh) I miss the highs more than I fear the crash (the crash) So I keep stepping on the same glass (same glass) I tell my friends I’m working on myself (on myself) Then disappear when I’m not (nah) I chase feelings that hurt me the most (yeah) Then ask why I’m exhausted (exhausted) I don’t need new pain (no) I just revisit the old ones (old ones) ‘Cause at least I know how they feel (mm) At least I know how to survive them (survive them) [Chorus] I keep going back to what hurts (what hurts) Like pain got my name on it I say I’m done, I say it’s over Then I miss it when I’m lonely (mm) I know it’s bad for my health (for my health) Still reach for it first (still do) I don’t know why I don’t learn (why) I keep going back to what hurts (what hurts) [Outro] (yeah…) (mm…) I know it’s killing me But it’s familiar
