Drifting

[chorus – falsetto, airy reverb] (I been driftin' in a fever dream, stitched to what I used to be) Shadows on my back like tattoos from the eulogy (Can't escape the things I see, love me like a lucid bleed) Even when I vanish, the damage gon' move with me [verse 1 – slow flow, building intensity] Pantomime prophet, crawl through a prophet’s coffin Spit glyphs on the walls where the lost get auctioned Cartilage contracts in contracts, the cost is A soul in a briefcase, stitched to the margins I barter my breath for a second of calm Still got rust in my lungs from the mines of my mom Where love meant silence, and silence was law Now I talk to myself just to know I belong Glass skin, nerve wire—touched by a liar Woke up with a god complex and a flat tire I bled through the mattress, dreamin’ of fire While angels played bones with my uncles in the choir [chorus – falsetto w/ distortion on final line] (I been driftin' in a fever dream, stitched to what I used to be) Shadows on my back like tattoos from the eulogy (Can't escape the things I see, love me like a lucid bleed) Even when I vanish, the damage gon' move with me (move with me) [verse 2 – rapid-fire, dense lyricism] Swallowed by the page like a sermon in Morse code Pulse like Morse with a warlord torso Mouth full of verbs, no safe word Morse flow Hung from the neck with a metaphor torso Born with a halo made of cut glass stemware Talk slick, get baptized in a despair Shotgun sermons, your preacher’s on Fentanyl Tears in the font, now your faith got a fentanyl (I bled through the faults that your father ignored) Grew teeth in the basement, chewin’ on chords Tuned my trauma to a G minor chord Now I hum pain through the speaker like a Ouija board [bridge – half-sung, drugged tempo] (So numb, so numb, I forget where the hurt is) Every touch feel like a sermon in cursive Kiss me with guilt, I can taste where the dirt is Built from a silence too loud for the churches [verse 3 – slower, brooding delivery] I learned love from a switchblade grin Where my demons dance waltzes in opiate skin Built an altar from the pills I been swimmin' in Now I baptize my regrets in original sin Clock tick, sick of my reflection talkin’ That bitch know me like a casket know a coffin Dead man walkin’ with a verse for a heartbeat Spit like my mic got trauma in the concrete They said pray, I said pay me in ash So I burn every verse like a check that won’t cash God’s voice came through a dial tone splash So I cut the cord and wrote pain in the stash [chorus – reverb-heavy, whispered final line] (I been driftin' in a fever dream, stitched to what I used to be) Shadows on my back like tattoos from the eulogy (Can't escape the things I see, love me like a lucid bleed) Even when I vanish, the damage gon' move with me (move with me…) [outro – soft falsetto, fading] (I been gone so long, I don’t know if I’m real) (Phantom limb twitchin’, I forgot how to feel…)