Not even Mine

You never said you'd stay, Never called me yours in any way. But I still trace your name In the quiet corners of my day. No strings, no vows, no plan, Still I hold you like the last breath I have. You're free, and yet you haunt me Like something I already had. I shouldn’t care, I shouldn’t crave, But when you're gone, I feel the ache. You're not a promise, you're a breeze, Still, you bring me to my knees. You’re not even mine, But why does it feel like I’m losing time? Like letting go of something, that was never mine to keep Still it cuts me deep. No claim, no sign, But I’d still shatter if you crossed that line. Tell me why… When you were never mine, I’m still so afraid to lose you. We dance in shadows, close but far, Touch without leaving a mark. You're the silence in the car, Still louder than my beating heart. No one would know, there’s no proof, But in my world, you’ve filled every room. Like gravity without consent, You pull me in, then vanish again. I keep pretending I’m okay, But I rewind everything you say. You never said you’d be around, Still I fear you letting me down. You’re not even mine, But why does it feel like I’m out of time? Like I’m holding air that used to breathe Still it breaks me underneath. No rules, no right, But I’d still wait for you every night. Tell me why… When you were never mine, I’m still so afraid to lose you. Maybe love don’t need a name, Maybe wanting you is just my shame. But I swear it feels like fate When you look at me that way. You’re not even mine, But my soul still draws your outline. Like a ghost I never kissed But somehow still miss. No ties, no fight, But I’d still choose you every time. Tell me why… When you were never mine, I’m still so afraid… To lose you.