Spiral

"Spiral" by Echo Tide ------------------------------- Lyrical Creation: © 2025 Echo Tide Musical Arrangement: © 2025 Echo Tide All Rights Reserved | Copyright © 2025 Echo Tide ------------------------------------------------------------- I’ve been on a binger, and it feeds my biggest hater (Hey!) Looking through the trash to find the drug of validation (Hey!) Threw it out the other day in a fit of shame and anger! (Hey!) But shame and anger are the forces I need to be saved from! I keep doing the same self-destructive things over and over! (Fate!) A year now, rehearsing all the reasons I’m too broken! (Hate!) Believing, my life that’s barely started’s almost over! (Hey!) And feeling like my soul is only destined to grow colder! I wake up every day, instead of thankful for my blessings! I think about a million ways the world around me’s breaking! And maybe that’s a problem, cause it keeps me spiraling! Hating everything around me and myself is suffocating! But it’s hard to sit around and watch as everything I once loved Starts to change in ways I never even thought that they could Self-perception has me staying in perpetual ruts And even family doesn’t feel as tightly knit as it was! I’m over it! Hunting for a clone of myself! Who got over his emotions and made a life for himself! Instead of binging on hatred for how his life up and left him! And simultaneously begging for a stranger’s attention! I used to talk to God about it on a regular basis! Started feeling like He didn’t hear the words I was saying! So I stopped, and now I only get a glimpse of his presence! Every now and then, when I get in a really bad place and I start to cry in overwhelm of all the burdens I carry Of how the future only seems to hold the same as the present Depression And never being anything that I wanted! And probably die alone, cause who would love a man that’s this broken?! Ugh! That’s not true, it’s just my mind tryna protect me from sorrow! Cause if I never live, I’ll never fail, but life will feel hollow! I think the darkness feels so comfy cause it’s certain, I guess! And there’s no guessing what direction it’ll choose to go next It’s safe, huh? Well, I wouldn’t take the saying that far It’s only safe in the sense that you can never be wrong It’s a bet on yourself to be the way that you are But let me warn you, you can never feel free in those thoughts... ------------------------------- Lyrical Creation: © 2025 Echo Tide Musical Arrangement: © 2025 Echo Tide All Rights Reserved | Copyright © 2025 Echo Tide -------------------------------------------------------------