One day I received a box at my door It wasn’t something I ever asked for Small and ugly, it would change my life Take me to my knees on many a night The delivery man looked into my eyes His disgust in full view, through my cries Judgement on me had already begun All of my sins laid bare, out in the open Like a curse, I keep it for all time No one can share it, it is only mine Keeping the lid closed at all times Almost drives me out of my mind I’m a strong woman, and I really do try But Pandora’s Box haunts me every night Sometimes I want to open it, but I know Darkness inside, will come for my soul It calls to me in the night (don’t sleep) As the silence starts to fight (save me) When I’m alone, or not (no doubt) Always there, calling me out What’s it like every day? (all day) Biggest failure, in your face? (my face) See myself wrapped in flaws (demon claws) Just hoping no one else does For those that I love the most I have to keep this box closed They can never see what's inside You can't unsee it even if you try The box's emptiness engulfs all things It’s almost beautiful the loathing it brings Weakness surrounds it, beckons me along Bringing self doubt and how I was wrong And I would allow it to take me away If I could see her again for just a day A glimpse of her face, the smell of her hair I'd say, "I’m sorry, I wasn’t there” It calls to me in the night (don’t sleep) As the silence starts to fight (save me) When I’m alone, or not (no doubt) Always there, calling me out What’s it like every day? (all day) Biggest failure, in your face? (my face) See myself wrapped in flaws (demon claws) Just hoping no one else does For those that I love the most I have to keep this box closed They can never see what's inside You can't unsee it even if you try Forces calling me to open it wide A battle I have deep in my mind Whatever I do I must keep it closed In that box...is my baby girl's soul I’m a strong woman, and I really do try But Pandora’s Box haunts me every night Every night… *For my daughter who took her own life in 2011. I will always miss you. The box is real. Lyrics: © 2024 Goddesspanda SKS Music and Arrangement: © 2024 Goddesspanda SKS © 2024 Goddesspanda SKS (Soul Kandy Studios). All rights reserved.
