I Got That Illness

[Verse 1] I don’t sleep, I just wait, Hours pass, body stays awake. Thoughts hit hard, no room to run, I’m in the dark, and I block the sun. There’s a weight pressing down on me, It’s in my lungs and it’s hard to breathe. Can’t explain what I don’t understand— Falling apart while I make a stand. [Pre-Chorus] I wear it like a second skin, Can’t see out, but it pulls me in. Tangled thoughts and broken lines— I pretend, but it won’t stay behind. [Chorus] I got that illness—yeah, it’s creeping in slow, It don’t knock, just breaks down the door. Whispers loud, messes with my head, Makes me feel like I’m already dead. I got that illness, it don’t play fair, But I fight like hell just to breathe the air. [Verse 2] It’s not a scream, it’s a quiet hum, A buzzing noise that leaves me numb. Smiles fade like a worn-out song, Even when I’m right, I feel so wrong. People say, “Just shake it off,” But they don’t know what it costs. Every day feels like a test, I pass it, but I never rest. [Pre-Chorus] It crawls in and it never leaves, Builds a cage I can’t unsee. Silent storm that wrecks my mind, I fake the calm, but I’m not fine. [Chorus] I got that illness—yeah, it’s creeping in slow, It don’t knock, just breaks down the door. Whispers loud, messes with my head, Makes me feel like I’m already dead. I got that illness, it don’t play fair, But I fight like hell just to breathe the air. [Bridge] Some days I crash, some nights I drown, But I still wake up, still hang around. I’m not okay, but I’m not done, The fight’s not over ‘til I say it’s won. [Chorus – Repeat] I got that illness—yeah, it’s creeping in slow, It don’t knock, just breaks down the door. Whispers loud, messes with my head, Makes me feel like I’m already dead. I got that illness, it don’t play fair, But I fight like hell just to breathe the air.