Don't Hate me Now (3-11-25) [E]

[short instrumental hook] [intro] Ladies & Gentlemen.… — Van-Go… Lend me your ear! For this little song you’re about to hear, has everything to do with hopes & fears, Exit through the gift shop, don’t forget your souvenirs. [verse 1] Don’t mean to seem conceited. & I don’t want to be Misleading, I tend to end up defeated. ‘Cause I’m actually unneeded. Feeling empty & alone. [verse 2] Started from the bottom, still can’t reach the top shelf. Wasting away in my own private hell Tried to get up again, but slipped & fell. Guess rock bottom feels like home as well. [pre-chorus] I’m afraid of my reflection, afraid of my shadow, Afraid of my options, they’re all hard to swallow. Afraid I might not wake up tomorrow. [Chorus] Don’t hate me now (hate me now) I already do that enough. Don’t pretend you hold all the cards, I’m finally calling your bluff Don’t run me around (run me around) Put my cares on your shelf. Still won’t let you drown (let me drown) Couldn’t live with myself. Don’t hate me now (hate me now) [reprise short instrumental hook] [verse 3] I’m not one to beg, borrow, or steal. At this point I might try anything to heal. Self medication has its appeal. Not religious, but praying Jesus takes the wheel. [verse 4] Thought I was under the table & dreaming, But I just about hit my head off the ceiling. Just trying to express my feelings. - So, tried to scratch out a picture of a panic attack. Not a needle to be found in this “haystack.” Hit the road Jack, don't you come back, no more. [pre-chorus] Having a crisis, not the mid-life kind. Still have to pay rent, rise & grind. I may feel old, yet not obsolete, & Perhaps naive, but I kept receipts, & Barely breathing, but it bears repeating. [Reprise chorus] [reprise short instrumental hook] [bridge] Don’t wanna be your persona non grotta, but, I tried to paint your childhood trauma. Lists of scars & oxford commas. A canvas of chaos, a graveyard of dreams Came out “surreal, with some heavy themes,” “fractured and frantic” — whatever that means. it bleeds green with envy for the kid you had dreamt to be. [verse 6] Wanted to see my point of view, So I decided to paint a portrait of you. But the colors pooled… — all black & blue. Came out half nude & half bruised. & nearly half true. Part of you was half amused!