𝐏𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐢𝐧 𝐆𝐫𝐞𝐲

The pressure’s a friend, that I’ve come to know, It wraps me in silence, refuses to let go. Falling through the hours, slipping through my hands, I’ve forgotten how to fight, or where I even stand. mind say, "You'll be fine, just give it time," But the clock keeps ticking, erasing mine. A signature lifestyle, stitched by pain, Walking through storms, embracing the rain. A reasonless smile to greet the day, It’s how I cope, it’s my only way. A quiet surrender, but just for a while, And then I’ll return to my reasonless smile. Hope’s a stranger I’ve long forgot, Every promise feels like a tangled knot. Searching for answers in an empty sky, Barely alive, yet too scared to die. I paint the day in colors, that don’t belong, Walking through motions, pretending I’m strong. But every step feels, heavier than the last, Carrying the weight of my broken past. A reasonless smile to greet the day, It’s how I cope, it’s my only way. A quiet surrender, but just for a while, And then I’ll return to my reasonless smile. Is it weakness, or is it strength, To carry this burden at any length? The cracks are widening, they’re breaking through, But I don’t know if I want them to. If I could find the pieces, would they even fit? Or am I just a puzzle, no one can ever fix? The days blur together, a carousel of gray, Spinning in the dark, trying to find my way... Can't hold back... Oh.. Can't hold back now... I can't handle me... Oh.. I can't keep living on...