For what I lived

For what I am and am not For what I am not and am For what I look and am not For what I am and don't seem to be For what I gave and didn't get For what I took and did not give For what they did to me without counting me For what they didn't do to me About what I said when I had to be silent About what I kept silent when I had to speak For what I asked and was denied For what they gave me without asking For what I lived and should not have lived For what I didn't live when I should have live